At first it doesn't matter
And then it does
And then it matters even more
And then you think about it,
When you see a name or a post
And it just matters so much
And then you cry
And you wonder if you'll ever matter again
And you wonder what they think
And you wonder yourself into oblivion
And then it doesn't matter
Your words are thrown out to someone,
Someone who you don't know suddenly
And then you wait
And wait some more
And you relapse
And you cry again
And then
The wait is over
And it doesn't feel the same
But it doesn't matter
The wait is over
