COMING OUT: PROMISE

Promise

Summary: Dan & Phil make a comig ot video, but Dan is really worried and scared, so Phil has to calm him down

This is my first Phanfiction ever...hope you like it and maybe i could do a part 2

phan status: together

warnings: swearing

word count: 838

Dan was anxiously looking at the camera. He didn't want to do it, he simply wasn't ready. The boy knew people were going to hate on him, some things never change. But Phil had wanted to do this since they got together back in 2009 and Dan didn't want to make his boyfriend suffer any longer. He felt his eyes get watery as he remembered everything the bullies used to tell him, all those wound that would never really disappear. It was just too much! Maybe he could just tell Phil he wasn't going to do it; but then he would have to see that familiar disappointed look on his face. The one the blue eyed boy had every time Dan told him he wasn't going to come out yet.

"You ready, bear?" said a soft voice from behind. Dan wiped his tears away quickly. He had to do this for Phil.

"Yeah, let's get this over with"

"Dan, we don't have to do it if you don't want to" Phil said sitting next to his boyfriend. Of course he didn't want to do it. Dan felt that coming out to the world was just the perfect way to get hate and he had had enough of that when he was a teenager, but Phil didn't want to hide and he had been doing it for almost six years . "I can't be so fucking selfish" Dan thought as he turned on the camera. "Let's do it" he said rather abruptly. Dan sat back down a little closer to Phil than he usually would in a video and sighted

"Hello internet," he said as cheerfully as he could

"Hey guys!" Phil continued, "so, there is something we have been hiding for a very long time and we decided it was time to tell you," Phil put his hand on the other boy's thigh, and Dan could not help but giggle with the smooth touch. He felt his boyfriend's bright eyes glancing at him for a moment before saying the words.

"Dan and I are a couple!" Dan shivered. He could already see the judging comments. "Shocker," the younger one said sarcastically, following the script they had made for the video. Then, Phil started to tell the story of how Dan had kissed him while recording the first ever Phil is not on fire video and explaining that they've been together ever since. Dan was not actually listening as much as he was playing the scene on his head. The story had always been theirs and now it belonged to everyone else to judge. He was worried but the feeling went away when he noticed Phil's smiling face as he told the story to the camera. Fuck, he loved Phil too much, and his happiness was definitely worth the pain especially because his boyfriend had sacrificed himself for too long. But it was so scary and painful; what if...

"Oh bear, are you okay?" Phil's gentle hand touched his face and only then Dan realized that he had been crying. "We don't have to do this okay...let's just watch TV or something and pretend this never happened,"

"No...I want to do this,"

"No, you don't. Dan, if you're not ready that's alright and..." Phil couldn't even finish what he was saying when Dan broke into tears

"I'm just so bloody selfish...and I'm such a coward Phil"

"No! How can you say that?"

"I am....I've been hiding all my life and I can't take it anymore! I'm tired of been scare all the time and I'm tire of not being the boyfriend you deserve,"

"Dan you are the best thing that has ever happened to me...hey, it's fine we don't have to come out if you don't want to" Phil smile softly but Dan could see, once again, the disappointment in his eyes. The brown eyed boy tried hard to speak but his breathing was very unsteady and the words got lost in his throat. Phil noticed and pulled Dan into an embrace

"Breathe with me Daniel," he said, taking a deep breath after another. Dan followed, and eventually, he calmed down.

...............

They were watching Death Note sitting on the opposite ends of the couch. Dan glanced at Phil every time he though his boyfriend wasn't looking. "Why are you so afraid?" Phil suddenly asked,

"..I...um...i guess I just feel everyone's going to hate on us, and before you say anything I know how stupid that is. I know how supportive our fans are and I know that other people's opinion shouldn't matter and all that shit...and I'm really sorry Phil for making thigs so hard,"

"I'm sorry if I pushed you into doing something you didn't felt comfortable with. I don't want you to feel bad"

"We'll come out soon," Dan reassured him, "I promise"

"Pinky- promise?"

"ugh, you are so immature" he tried to sound annoyed and failed miserably

"Dan!"

Dan sighted deeply before kissing his boyfriend on the forehead, and after a moment he answered,

"Pinky-promise."