saturday, july 25, 12:32AM
jennifer,
you're my best friend, my sister, my fangirl buddy, and you mean everything to me. us not talking recently has really been hard for me. i miss you so much, if only our parents knew.
the internet is a combination of both the best and the worst thing that has happened to me. it's the best because i met you, and every time we talk you never fail to make me laugh my ass off and then have to try and stay super quiet so my parents won't ask me what i'm laughing about. it's the worst because my whole life is a secret- and from my parents.
i want to tell them so bad, but i know that the end reaction won't turn out good. i'd lose my phone, i'd lose my privileges, i'd lose their trust- but the worst part is i'd most likely lose you too. and i can't lose my best friend.
you mean so much to me that i am willing to hide this whole major part of my life just so i can keep talking to you. i want us to be roommates when we get old enough to move out. maybe i can make you like taco bell, and we can eat there. if not, you starve. (sorry).
ANYWAYS, i think you kinda get the point. i swear to lord that the next time i get any slight chance to text you i will, but i'm not going to my mom's house until august 14, which august 16 is the concert. so i don't think that i will be able to text you before then but if not then we can just write letters to each other through wattpad.
when we meet, it's gonna be so weird. we probably won't run and hug each other but slowly approach one another and i'll just go up to you and poke your shoulder and be like "woah you're real. and not a pedophile!"
i'm totally convinced that will be what happens, so much for all those friendship goals vines am i right?!?!?
although it's 1AM i wish i could talk to you on the phone and tell you everything about that asshole. i know you're probably the only one ever going to read this book but whatever.
so the point of this was to just say how much i love having you as a best friend and thank you for always being there for me when i needed you most. you always manage to make me smile and it's so great to have a friend that can do that, and we don't even know each other's last names. we have never even met, and you're the best friend i have ever had. so thanks, for being you and being there for me. i love you best friend, never forget that.
-brianna
