YOUR A FUCKING DISCRACE"
NOBODY WILL EVER WANT YOU!"
my sister screamed at me. This was nothing to me anymore. If only she knew I believed every word she said. Shrugging her off I walk off an upstairs to my room locking it behind me. I sat on my bed letting my tears fall silently. I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror.
Why do you have to be different? Why can't you just be normal for fucking once, maybe your sister
will love you for once.
I sighed pushing to my feet. Sliding my draw open I took out a navy long sleeve shirt and midnight jeans. Stripping my shirt off I stared at my arms, my heart breaking over and over as I count the scars I foverly carved into my skin. I sighed to myself, no matter how many times I try to forget the cuts on my arms there is always a new cut reminding me of my defeat.
I let my hair fall slidding a white binnie halfway over my head putting glasses on afterwards. Stepping into brown ankle boots. Before leaving out my room I tried to wipe the sadness out my eyes.
I mange to sum up a little light in my eyes. Just enough to get me through the day.
RING RING!
The bell sherik through the hallways by the time I step foot on campus. I have been walking to school since my sister refuses to drop me off.
"Why should I have to drop her off to school?" Megan yelled
"I can't do it I need to have Anna and Nick ready to go to Nana's, you know her school is going out my way."mother sighed
"Make that pig walk, she can stand to loose a few pounds."Megan smirked.
I open the door to my first bell class keeping my head down as I walk in. I made my way to my seat trying to ignore death glares. "Fat bitch." Someone coughed under there breath as I sat down the chair squeak sending the room ringing with laughter.
"Who said that?!" Mr. Kerkindoff roared.
No answer.
I swallowed the lump in my throat the tears threating to spill over. Forty-five mintues that felt like years first bell was over. I spunt second and third bell in the girls bathroom throwing up an crying, lucky no one walk in while purge my guts and cried my eyes out.
By the time I was done it was lunch time an I was starved. I made my way to the caferita doors pausing outside them.
I can't go in there I thought. Sighing I turn around heading to my locker. My heart jump as I read the words on a note left in my locker.
OINK OINK
My gut squzzed inside me as I clung tight to the paper holding in a cry I ran outside throwing the paper away in the process.
I found myself crying under a oak tree on outside campus. Sniffling I stared up at the sun wishing dad was still here, everything was better.
"Whats wrong Maeve?" His voice fill with concernd. I smiled "Nothing dad." He sighed pulling me beside him as we lay on the cool grass watching the clouds. Silence feeling the space as the sun warmed my face. "Maevers something is up."he spoke up
"Nothing is wrong dad."I spoke quietly. His eyes gloss over like he was going to cry as he kiss my nose. "I see the pain hidden your pride, your smiles don't reach your eyes something is wrong."
I sighed looking everywhere else but him. "The kids at school are always picking me, they say im too fat im not pretty enough...why did I have to be me dad?" I choked out
He gave me a small smile as he spoke. "Because your an angel Maevers my little angel before you were born I was lost and helpless. I asked god to help me and he gave me you."he paused
"I never been so happy, those kids look the other way keep your head up, they only hurt if you let them. Don't give into lies." He smiled
