"I have no friends" I said, "I'm worthless" I said, "I'm fat ,ugly , I have no friends !! Everyone hates me!!! I said while a tear fell down my face, " I have diabetes in any moment I can die why cant I just kill myself and end up all this pain!!! Why don't I just start cutting all this pain away!!! .
School...!!!
"Karla!! Is hot in here why do u have Ur jacket on??" Fatima ask, "I will show u later let's go class" I said while shaking and being nervous. Ring , ring!!Second period..! "Karla show me now" Fatima said, "Karla pull her sleeves up and show Fatima all her cuts && Valeria saw it" , "Karla why did u did that !?? " Fatima ask, "because I'm tired of feeling worthless!!!" I said. (That afternoon valermia texted Karla asking her why does she cut because of them (sully,lulu,her,and Kimberly). I said "I don't cut because of u guys df ? I don't have to be cutting because of y'all!!" While in the inside I was dying to tell her the reason of why I cut!! "okay I was just worried about u ! U don't have to be so rude to me!! " Valeria said, "bye!!!!! " I said.
"Karla!!!!" Mom yells, "yes??" I said , "u never do anything correctly Ur so worthless nena lsesrn how to do stuff correctly and stop being so idiot!!!!" Mom yells, "okay " i said, (I cut even more because that pain was horrible and strong !!!)" I went to my room and started cutting " !!
next day!!
Third period: "Fatima I have to show u something " I said while tears came out of my eyes, "yes?" Fatima ask, "I pull my sleeves up and show her 17 cuts I did in total counting the ones I did the day before and Valeria saw it and in third period she told sully and sully ask me to show her my wrists and I showed her and jshe ask "WHY ARE U CUTTING ????? while tears on her eyes , " my heart completely broke because I though I was worthless , I though I was not important but when I saw her crying for me I started crying I couldn't hold anymore !!! my heart was beating fast I was scared I was sad , I was feeling really mad and sad !! I went to the office cause ms.Owens called ms.smith . I was mad at sully and Valeria but now I'm just thanking them for telling the teacher because now I dont have to cover my wrists ... I will have scars ... !!
sometimes I do feel like cutting and I have done it but just little cuts pain is dangerous !!
