Oneshots -Emison, Hannily

It broke me 2/2

"Hey mama. I miss you. I miss you so so much. So does mom."
I take a deep breath.
"It's just hard you know? I would have loved to meet you.
It makes me sad that I have never seen my mother. And I was too little. But I see you. I dream of you."
My eyes are watering.
"I dream of you holding me as I was a baby. And I think that's not a dream. It happened. It was real. And that's the only thing I remember.."
I trail of.
"All I ever see of you are pictures. Pictures in the house. Of us, of you, of mom and you..
There are so many."
I wipe a tear away.
"And I couldn't see you. I can't. I-I will never see you.."
I close my eyes remembering my mom.
"But that's not the worst thing mama. The worst part is that mom isn't happy. She will never be happy. You were her life. You are her life. But they took you away from her. I know everything.
..but at the same time I have the feeling I know nothing..I don't know anything about you..
Everybody tells me that you were amazing. You were a special and loving person. You protected everyone. But you forgot yourself sometimes.
Did you forget yourself in that moment?"
I say a bit angry.
"I'm sorry mama. It's just really hard you know.."
My expression softens.
"It's hard to see mom like this. She won't let go of you. She never will.
We never will. Also I never met you..I know you are amazing. Wherever you are."
I am looking up to the sky.
"Well I am here today because I know you are still here. But you should go. I will take care of mom. She's everything I have. There is a girl. Her name is Amy..she helps me a lot. And she will help mama. I will protect her with my life just like you did."
I sigh, knowing this is the right moment.
"Mom will be here tomorrow. She prays that you are still alive. But we know you will never be here again.
This visit will be the last for a long time. I am going to college. I will stay near where mom is.
It sounds rude but please help her mama. She is in so much pain. Help her to let you go. So much time went by and I still hear her crying in her room. In your room."
I sit down on the ground in front of the grave.
"You will be gone for 14 years tomorrow.
Who knows maybe mom will come today too at night. It's your wedding day.
Should I say happy 15th anniversary or not?
-well I just said it."
I look at my side and smile.
"I have to go now mama. I love you so much. I will come here soon.
I know I never saw you or anything but I know I look like you. And I love it. And I will do anything for mom. I love you both. Please help her."
I stand up slowly and walk closer to the grave stone.
"I will see you some day up there mama."
I say pointing towards the sky.
"I love you mama. Forever and always."
I stroke my hand over her grave stone and stand up.

I turn around slowly and see my girlfriend smiling at me. I smile back at her and walk towards her. She wipes a few tears away from my eyes and I see her eyes are glossy too.

"Let's go, love."