For those of you that are wondering why my updates have been hardly existent, I do have an actual reason. I'm sorry for the scarcity of writing from me, but on March 8, 2016 I was diagnosed with Leukemia. I'm starting up writing again, hoping it'll help coping.
-meg
Hailie
904 days after...
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"Listen to me," I groaned. "I have a baby, Sean, I can't get laid off. I'm twenty-two for crying out loud, with a kid and no father in his life, what am I supposed to do?"
"I'm sorry, Hailie," my boss said. "But I'm afraid there's nothing I can do. You get two more checks and that's it. I can't do anything else. I wish I could."
"Its not even like I'm undedicated or always late or anything," I said.
"No, but you're one of the higher paid employees and we can't afford to pay you anymore," he said. "The hospital's going out of business."
"I'll take a pay cut," I offered. "I just can't have no job."
"I'm sorry," Sean sighed. "But its final. Hailie, you're fired. That's that."
I sighed and hung up, covering my face with my hands. My phone started ringing again, and when I read Ashton's name, I debated not answering, but I wiped my tears of frustration and answered the phone.
"Hello?" I tried to sound cheery, but I just couldn't.
"Hey, Hales," he said. "What's wrong? You sound like you're crying."
I couldn't tell him I got fired from my job. He'd think that the only reason I was even talking to him was because I didn't have any other source of income and I didn't want him to think that I was using him. That also gave him a reason to be around more often and I wasn't ready for that.
"I don't wanna talk about it," I said. "Its really not a big deal, I'm just stressed but I'm okay. What's up?"
"I have a proposition for you," he said. "And I need you to listen to me before you just say no."
"What?"
"So, since you've been really stressed lately, I was wondering," he took a deep breath. "If maybe you'd wanna go on a trip with me? Like, so we could spend some time together. I know things aren't going great for you so I feel like you need some time to just relax. My mum said she would be more than happy with taking Parker to her house and keeping him."
"Ashton, that's really sweet," I sighed. "And I would love to, but I just don't really know about leaving him."
"He'll be okay, I promise," he said. "And he's never met his grandparents so maybe he can now."
"When do you wanna go? Where?"
"In like a week," he replied. "And it's a secret."
"Okay," I breathed. "Yeah, I'll go. Just as friends, right?"
"Just as friends," he answered happily. "I promise I won't make you regret it, Hales."
"Let's hope not,"
Ashton
905 days after...
I'd planned out every detail before I ever got on the phone with Hailie. I just had this gut feeling that I was gonna win her over with my master plan, and I was pretty sure it was already starting. Fans were slowly catching on, but I knew I couldn't say anything, so I basically subtweeted quite often.
@Ashton5SOS: here we go again
@Ashton5SOS: I'm sorry if I say I need ya, but I don't care I'm not scared (:
@Ashton5SOS: I wish I was beside youuu
And I'm basically still the same seventeen year old that fell in love with Hailie the first time around. As I sat with my laptop, I decided to replay some of the old videos we used to sit in our apartment and make.
We were sitting in our bed, a beanie on my head and Hailie's hair still in a fringe. I smiled as she leaned in to me, biting her lip and blushing gently.
"So, we're gonna answer some of you guy's questions," I said awkwardly. "Oh, and this is my beautiful girlfriend, Hailie."
Hailie waved at the camera and held my bicep tightly and rested her head on my shoulder.
"The first question is, how did you guys know you loved each other?" I recited, laughing after. I looked down at Hailie and bit my lip, smiling like an idiot.
"One day I think I just looked at him and I was like, I fucking love you, you idiot, and I didn't tell him for a long time after that," Hailie said awkwardly. I laughed with her and she pecked my neck, making me blush obviously.
"I knew when I stopped and looked into her eyes and I realized how much she really meant to me," I said. "We were fighting that night and I just kind of realized I loved her."
"The next question is, what is your favorite thing to do as a couple?" She read. "I like going to movies once a month. It's so fun."
I stopped the video and stared at the screen. We were seventeen and so in love and I wondered where that couple went. I craved that feeling again and I knew Hailie was the only one who could ignite it. I knew Hailie was my one and only. She and I had something so irreplaceable that there was no way I was going to just get over it. I had gone three years without seeing her and she still made my heart pound when I saw her. Those fucking eyes got me every time I looked into them and I wanted to feel her skin on mine again and I wanted her to want me that bad. I missed her, and I really just wanted her to miss me too.
I briefly wondered what would've happened if Hailie never got pregnant. I wondered if we would still be together and if things would be better by now. I regretted ever doing her wrong and breaking her trust. I wanted to go back to the day of our car accident and tell her she couldn't drive. I feel like that would change so much and I would've never lied to her. I would've never cheated on her either because I never would've lost that connection while she was trying to figure out what she would do because I didn't remember her.
I thought about this often. I always have this picture of what things would be like if I'd never lied to her for Michael.
But you can't change the past.
