Lost in Limbo

part 1 of 1 - the heart

Once your heart is set up for love and to love that one person and that person leaves. Well your heart is left stranded and well unfortunately your head is at that place too. Let's call this place limbo. Once you are in limbo, it is extremely hard to get out of it and really is a struggle. To be getting up every morning knowing your heart is going to hurt in the same way as it did yesterday is torture. But then there is that other boy, who reminds you of him and his ways but you can't have him, he is unreachable, and no there is no reason to why just at this stage but again it still hurts. He could take the pain away but what if he just makes the pain worse in now you're further than limbo much, much further and now there's no way to go, no cross roads other choices because you have made all the ones you can and now are in this place and it kills but you put a smile on, you say nothing's wrong. And that's only true til I start thinking of you. But then thinking of you makes me start thinking of him and how I have betrayed him now in some way like I owe him but deep down I know I don't. So why does is it the cause of my pain? What can make it go away? Because this is a big circle, it just keeps going around, where there once was a beginning is now never ending.