Everlasting Part Two

Reborn

How could I have done such a thing to myself?

It was all I could think about... The depravity I put myself through replaying over and over in my head.

My heart had completely given up on me and I let it turn me to nothing.

I barged into McKenna's room eyes wide grasping my aching chest. It hurt to breathe so heavily. She was up and by my side in an instant holding her arms out in case I needed her assistance.

I'll be honest, it felt like I was gonna pass out. All this epiphany stuff had me over the edge. I was finally bearing the weight of my physical and emotional fatigue.

"Mia, what're you doing here?"

"I-I need you to--" I paused still out of breath, "help me with something."

"Well obviously, what have you been doing? Running a marathon? Why are you so out of breath?"

I chuckled, "dumbass, this is how tired I am from simply running to your room," I looked at her, "anyways I need you to help me."

"Alright I got that part, what exactly do you need me to help with?"

I was so tired of being tired and weak and useless.

"I want to become strong again."

She looked away and laughed, actually laughed. Then she sighed and looked back at me. My eyebrows furrowed.

"What the hell is so funny about that?" I was a bit irritated that she was laughing at my asking for help.

"It's about damn time you know?"

"What is that supposed to mean?"

"You've destroyed yourself over and over again for the past year, I was just waiting for you to get tired of it. You're stronger than that, I sensed that about you since the moment I met you."

I was frozen, staring at her when suddenly tears just began flowing down my face. I urged them to come back into my eyes but they carved rivers and ruthlessly displayed my emotions.

Then McKenna hugged me. And it took all I had not to fall apart.

"Don't worry, we'll get you back on your feet soon enough" she smiled at me and then beckoned me to follow her.

She took me to the kitchen, where she prepared a four course meal: appetizer, two main courses, and dessert. I was surprised how much of it actually fit into my stomach.

"First things first, we need to get your health back to normal. I'm sure your metabolism is all messed up, and--" but then she stopped but she might as well have said, 'and your body is sick of eating itself' because it was true. I was a twig. It wasn't healthy.

I scarfed down every last bite until my stomach couldn't fit any more.

Next she took me to the shower, where I scrubbed the hell out of my body. My feet had turned to callous stumps, and my hair was a tangled knot of dirt.

Standing in front of the bathroom mirror I wiped my face only to reveal a reflection of myself I better recognized. Of course I was still a decent mess, but my skin was clean, and my cheeks had regained their color. My eyes weren't as drained of light, and my hair was returning to its fiery orange color.

I smiled.

Genuinely smiled.

For the first time in way too long.

Once I exited the bathroom Kenna and Tobi were standing outside the door. Tobi practically tackled me exclaiming,
"MIA IS ALL BETTER"

And Tobi was, relatively, correct. But there was still a lot to be done to put me back to complete normalcy.

"Alright, so now that you're somewhat 'better'," Kenna chuckled, "tomorrow we'll go outside and start small training exercises," and then added, "after a big breakfast of course" she smiled.

I returned the smile and then turned back to my room.

That night when I laid in bed, instead of dreading the misery that I would wake up to tomorrow, I felt a fire ignite inside me. A fire that would shine as a new existence of myself.

Like a Phoenix I had died...

And now I was becoming reborn from the ashes of my despair.