[ Adrian POV ]
after kong umalis sa library dahil ayoko ko nang makita pa ako ni marie na umiyak na naman i know i'm too harsh but i can't help it , kasi pag hindi ko ginawa yun parang mas lala pa siguro yung sitwasyon ? at pa ulit-ulit lang din na epa mukha sakin na ako yung may kasalanan at siya yung nasaktan . i know , i know . but i was so tired that time kasi buong gabi ko yun iniyakan kahit na parang ang bakla lang tingnan pero wala eh , mahal mo yun kaya iiyakan mo yun , it"s better to cry than to be drunk all night at caught fights kasi mas dadami lang yung problema mo eh . it's worthless pa din . Next morning since hindi ako pumasok sa school kasi i know lutang din naman ako dun at medjo mainit pa yung ulo ko eh , kinuha ko na muna yung phone ko na nilagay ko talaga sa drawer ko para hindi ko magalaw yun baka ano pa lasi yung masabi ko eh and to my surprise i've received several calls and texts from marie . i am not expecting this kasi ako yung may kasalanan sa kanya kahapon kaya i'mthe one who needs to say sorry to her for being too numb to ignore and to shout at her . tsk :/
From: babe <3
hi josh . alam kong galit ka sakin i know i deserve this . but i want you to know how sorry i am right now at hindi ko naman hinihingi na patawarin mo agad ako kasi forgiveness takes a long process . but i know din na maiintindihan mo din yung naging decision ko kahapon sorry talaga . i hope next time we'll clear everything in us at sana nga next time mas magiging masaya tayo pareho sa mga magiging decision natin . thank you .
I know i never changed her name on my phone . i am still hoping for the comeback of our relationship i have my faith on it . and no one could ever break that. yes i know someone or some people will enter in our lives to challenge us but not to break the chains that connect us . i felt so relieved when reading her message . she felt sorry , i am too . but i was so hurt seeing the lines that yung dadating din yung time na magiging masaya kaming pareho , pero i can't feel the full happiness in me without her in my life to korny but that's true i'm the one who is so inlove with her but if ever will make her happy ? maybe that is the time for me to give her up . i don't want to imprison her in the place where she can't feel the happiness and love in her life.
After my dilemma i decided to attend my classes in the afternoon total wala din naman akong magagawa dito sa bahay . after 15minutes of travelling nakarating na'ko sa university at eksakto naman na lunch time na so i went hurriedly sa cafeteria only to saw what's happening right now was another heartbreak for me . lagi na lang tsk . :/
[ louise POV ]
Habang nasa cafeteria na kami dahil lunch time na at , wow lang . ang daming tao ba't naman kasi sabay-sabay yung lunch time ng mga students dito . so crowded talaga . grr! after several of minutes of waiting sa turn namin ni kath na makapag order eh , nakaraos din . and i'm totally sweating . urgh -.- badtrip!
" lou ? kayo pala yung naka-upo dito . pwedi ba kaming makipag share ? wala na talagang vacant seats eh . " and there i saw miguel with his uhh -- friend ?
" s-sure miggy dito na lang kayo umupo para di na kayo mahirapan pa . " si kath na yung sumagot para sa kanya . wow lang ang kalandian talaga ng babaeng to . if i know type niya ang guy na kasama ni miguel sparkling eyes ba naman . tsk!
" t-thank you . so lou , kamusta kana ? " i stunned when he hold my hand . ghad ! magtatanong lang hahawak pa ng kamay ? tss .
" u-uhh . o-okay lang ah . eto medjo pagod lang sa schedules namin eh . tapos malapit pa yung prelim exams natin . haaay !" i said to him after taking back my hand from him .
" uo nga ee . tss . nakakapagod nga mag-aral tapos buti pa kayo di loaded sa lahat ng subjects eh kami , eto loaded na loaded mga walang awa eh . " pag mamaktol naman ni miguel .
After eatung nag decide na sila louise na umalis na sana sa kanilang table . prro bago pa siya umalis eh ---
" wa- wait lou . uhh -- attention everyone !!! i just want you to know all na simula ngayon ako ay nanliligaw sa babaeng to LOUISE MARIE MENDEZ kaya kung sino man ang magbabalak na gumawa ng moves sa vabaeng to , please . back- off dude .yun lang thank you guys " saad ni miguel sa lahat ng taong nandito sa cafeteria ngayon pero iba naman yung nararamdaman ni louise sa mga panahong yun kaya dinala siya ng kanyang mga mata sa left side ng cafeteria . but in her surprise she saw the face of a broken man watching the big scene of them . pero nagtataka siya bakit parang nasasaktqn din siya para sa lalaking yun ? why she can't feel the happiness kasi diba ? para sumuko na lang yung isang lalaki sa buhay dahil sa ginawang scene ni miguel , pero hindi eh i can't imagine what i am feeling right now maling - mali to . :(
" lou !!!!!!!!!!!
" waaaaaiiiit!!!!!
I just run and run hanggang sa matagpuan ko na lang yung sarili ko na nandito sa rooftop ng school i don't know kung paano ako napunta dito dala na siguro sa mga nararamdam ko kaya parang ang bilis lang . bakit kasi nandoon pa siya , hindi na lang ba pweding h'wag na lang siyang umeksena pag samin na ni miguel kasi i can't find words on how to describe what i feel . hindi ko magawang maging masaya sa tuwing nakikita ko siya nasasaktan sa mga pangyayari eh , kahit anong ulit ko pa sa sarili ko na wala siyang paki-alam sakin kasi yun ang sabi niya pero bakit hindi ko magawang mag mahal ng ibang lalaki o maging sweet sa ibang lalaki pag andyan siya ? dahil akala ko masasaktan din siya ? i'm so wrong!
" ma-marie ?
" h-huh ???? lumigon ako sa likod ko sseing the guy who's the reason of my weird actions lately .
" pwede ba tayong mag-usap ? promise ----
" stop . don't say any promises just go and tell me kung ano yung gusto mong sabihin at--- at makikinig ako ."
" sorry kasi hindi ako nakapag reply sa texts mo and calls . and about yesterday i'm sorry too . i was so depressed that time kaya nasigawan kita . but , sa nakikita ko ngayon siguro nga tama ka marie , tama ka na bibitawan na talaga kita at epa-ubaya sa ibang tao . kasi alam ko dun ka sasaya sa piling nila eh . dun ka bararapat hindi sa gagong katulad ko . at sorry sobrang emotional ko na talaga towards you but this is the last , i hope you'll be fine and happy without me marie . sige i'll get going . bye " mahabang paliwanag niya na nag pa atras ng dila for a minutes ? i am not expecting this . but --- but what now ? i'm the ine who need this right ? ako yung may gusto neto kaya kailangan kong maging masaya para sa sarili ko kasi simula ngayong araw i am free toove someone who is worth by my love . someone who is really different from the guy i loved from the past .
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A/n : as you can see and notice ay puro emotional yung mga past chapters ko kasi yun talaga eh , i want everything to be real . yun naman talaga tayo once nasasaktan right ? we're just faking things and everything para sabihin ng iba na we're brave enough to handle things but deep inside we're slowly dying . anyways , next chapter magsisimula na talaga yung twists ng story na'to.
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