I feel like I can lose him any second of any given day. He's not only my best friend ,but also my soulmate. I love him to death but knowing him how he is I get scared of losing him. I remind him everyday how much I love him and how much he means to me. I know we're miles and miles apart but we're still going strong. Our bond really is strong ,the kid makes me happy no one makes me smile like he does. At the same time no one makes me cry like he does. I don't want to lose him and that's that, the kids just amazing. He's my everything ,he's perfect. I've always been crazy about this kid since the day we started talking. He wasn't a mistake he was a chance I was willing to take. Of course I didn't know we'd be how we are today . All I know is I wouldn't be who I am today with out him in my life. I want us to last not just for a moment but for a lifetime. Almost 2 Years now I've been all for you, is that enough time to call it love ? You still manage to take my breath away after all this time . You make me happy . You complete me . .
I know we have arguments here & there but trust me we'll get through them. You'll like some girls and i'll crush on some guys, but whatever is meant to be always finds it's way right?
You said you don't want to hurt me..
I trust you so I know you won't, absolutely with everything I trust you. You lived my life with me, saw every part of me. You've seen me at my worst & at my best. I can't lose you though because that would be a waste, I can't just forget about someone in the snap of a finger. You say I'm too nice, well I am because I know what it feels like to be talked down to, to feel worthless and like trash. I don't want ANYBODY feeling that way . Girls are more emotional, more insecure that's why I tell you never to call Liz fat. Anyways you stuck around the longest and I'm happy about that. Remember what I said 5 more years and ill get a promise ring .... Not for marriage but I had something else in mind, that'll be a surprise. Anyways I hope you find happiness wherever you go and with whoever you're with because I can't be their 24/7 anymore. It sucks, I wish I could be. You know you can always count on me for anything though.
We'll see in the long-run where we'll end up okay.
Bye.
-Sonja
