I was terrified. Jax was my everything and I couldn’t lose him. Kent came with me at the hospital. He also gave me mental support while we were in the car. I wasn’t crying anymore. We both stepped inside of the hospital with fear.
” Hi, I’m looking for Jax Robinson. I’m Alessia Young, his room mate.”
” He didn’t wake up yet but come with me. ”
”Um… Alessia? It would be better if I wait here . Let you two talk ” I nodded and followed the nurse to Jax’s room.
” Thank you. ” I said and stepped in. I flinched, his whole skin was burned. At least his face wasn’t, he was sleeping with an oxygen mask on his face. I felt so guilty for letting him alone with Alexa in the house. And what the fuck happened with her?! I took a seat on a chair near the bed. I stood there thinking about Kai, my life, my real parents and Kent… I didn’t even asked him about the tattoo. At least Jax was ok- if you could really say that. My gaze was interrupted by Jax’s soft groan. He removed his mask.
” Hey… ” He said with his eyes half-opened.
” Hey babe… ” He laughed a little.
” Since when you call me that? ”
” Since when I left you alone with a crazy bitch in the house and I found you in the hospital. What the fuck happened? ”
” We had a rough brake-up… She got all crazy jealous about me and you and she light up a cigarette. She throw it on the floor when she left… The rest you know.”
” Imma fucking kill that crazy ass whore, then I’ll fucking cut her into pieces and send her in a package to the morgue.”
” Relax babe, I’m fine and you’re not gonna touch her.”
” I can’t believe you’re taking her side after all she did to you. I mean she put you in a hospital. But whatever.”
” What are we gonna do? We don’t have a place to stay or money. ”
” Don’t worry I’ll figure something out by the time you get outta here. ”
” Ok but don’t do anything stupid. We have enough problems.”
” I need to go and tell the guy that bring me here that he can leave if he wants. Imma be right back.” He nodded. I was really surprised he didn’t ask any questions. That was his thing. Being protective, especially over me was hiss full-time job. I remember this one time I was in New York when a kid, he was about 12 years old, insulted me when I was walking around the city with Jax. He overreacted and told the kid that if he ever calls me that again he will rip his head off and throw it on a wall till it was nothing left of it. Poor little dude run away calling for help. I smiled as I walked out of the salon. I saw Kent sitting on a chair so I started walking towards him
” Less…” A small voice called from my back. I stopped and flinched. It couldn’t be… Oh shit!! Not now!! Worse timing possible… I turned around. I cracked a smile when I saw him.
” Hey Kai… Wassup? ”
” I found out what happened so I came to see how are you. I know that you’re pretty close with Jax…”
” I love him so much. Now I’m ok but I was terrified. It was awful. ” My voice was trembling and it wasn’t because of him. I felt awkward when I was talking about Jax, no matter who the person I was talking to was.
” Ok. So this is my number. If you need me, just call me. ” He gave me a small piece of paper with his number on it. If it was any other moment I would probably jump of happiness. But right now I felt nothing. No emotion, no feeling, nothing. Jax was the reason why. I was falling for this guy more and more everyday. When I was with him I felt amazing, I felt safe. But we were friends and I didn’t want to lose that. Our relationship was special. I turned around and walked towards Kent.
” Hey, what was all that about? ”
” Old friend. Haven’t seen him in a while and he gave me his new number. ” I lied and cracked a smile so he could believe me. Just that he didn’t.
” Don’t try to full me with that bullshit. I have like a thousand ex-girlfriends. What happened with that guy? ”
” Ugh fine! I was with him for a year before I got scared and ran away.”
” See. I’m good at this. Anyway what happened? Is your friend ok?”
” Yeah, he’s not gonna leave this place too soon, but he’s pretty much ok. I came to tell you that you can go home. You did enough for me tonight. I need something first though.”
” What? ”
” Your number. ” I winked and chuckled. Kent laughed.
” Give me your phone. ” I pulled out my phone and gave it to him. He introduced his number and gave me back my phone. He winked at me and left. I smiled. We’re gonna be great friends. I turned around to go back to Jax. Maybe it’s finally the time to talk with him about all. I opened the door and let myself in.
” Done? ”
” Done. Hey listen… I have to talk to you about something. I love you.” I waited for a reaction but all I got was a smile.
” I love you too. But what you wanted to talk about? ”
” No. You don’t understand. I don’t love you like that. ” His eyes whined. ” I didn’t mean I love you. I meant I’m in love with you. I didn’t mean it and it just happened. And I didn’t want to brake your relationship up and… and… I’m sorry. ” I started crying like a baby and I didn’t want to upset him. I just couldn’t keep it in. It was already too much. Too many secrets and shit.
” Oh god. Don’t cry. Why you apologizing to me? Come here. ” I stepped closer to the bed and Jax made me a sign to sit down. After I did he pulled me into a hug and patted my back gently.
” Love is a thing that you can’t stop feeling. You don’t choose who you fall in love with. You care too much and is nothing wrong in that. Not with me. So promise me you won’t do that again. You won’t apologize for loving ever again. ”
” Ok. I promise. ” He grabbed my waist hard enough to make me flinch. ” Owch ” I said as lowly as I could. In my situation didn’t take a lot to make my body hurt. But he heard me. Great, what do I say now?
” Lift your shirt.”
” What? ”
” You have a wound. I want to see it. Lift that damn shirt. ” Well fuck. That ain’t gonna happen.
” What are you talking about? I don’t have any wounds. You just squeezed too hard. ” Wow, I was a terrible liar. ‘You just squeezed too hard ’ ?! What the hell was that ?! I was mentally punching and facepalming myself for being so dumb.
” You don’t love me… Get out! ” His voice became severe. And he almost yelled.
” Wh-? What? ”
” You keep lying to me. Get out! ” I couldn’t believe it. He was making me choose between him and… my past.
” Fine… ” I said with my voice trembling. My heart was aching when I was seeing him like that. He looked away. He really thought I will leave. Which part of * I’m in love with you * didn’t he understand ?! I lifted my shirt and lowered my shorts, revealing the wound I had there.
” Here … ” I said lowly and he turned his head. His eyes whined in shock.
” I was stabbed. Happy now? ” I said and a tear escape my eye.
” No. Who did it? ” I sighed.
” My foster dad. My father did this… ” I said pointing at my wound. Jax was staring into my eyes. The anger was there, in his eyes. The fear was in my eyes. He won’t do anything. I can’t let him to. I don’t want him killed and I definitely don’t want to get hurt. Again…
YOU ARE READING
Black roses and dark dreams
RomanceHer whole life was turned upside down in one day. Now she has no idea who she is or who are her parents. She tries to stay focused and find out something about her family but it is really hard when the temptations keep showing everyday in her life...
