I Saved My Heroes (Fifth Harmony/You)

Chapter Nineteen

Your P.O.V.

"Y/N?" I looked over at Dana to see she and everyone else were still waiting on an answer. I saw them trying to read me, but the same feeling I had when I was about to confess to Gloria came back, fear. I didn't want to hurt my mom with the story of her ex husband's son. I didn't have the power in me, at least not yet. I only knew five girls who I could tell.

"Uh, could I talk to the girls alone in my room please?" The girls were stunned, I'm sure they knew I was about to tell them something I've been holding in. I've never really opened up to them a lot.

"Sure, but you talk to us after alright?" My mom said and I nodded.

I turned to the girls and motioned my head to the stairs. They all stood up from their seats and I did as well. I was nervous, so nervous that I almost turned back, but I continued to walk to my room because if there was any chance of me finding closure, I wanted to take it.

We finally made it to my room and we all piled into the same spots we were at earlier. The girls stared at me, waiting for me to start talking. I took a few moments to say the speech in my head before saying it out loud. I was about to reveal my darkest secret to them, I had to be ready.

"Uh, w-when-"

"Take your time Ninj, we are listening." Ally's voice soothed me and made the words in my head fit perfectly.

"When I was 12 I had something happen to me, something that still haunts me to this day. Its something I never felt comfortable telling anyone, but you girls are the second to hear about him."

"Him?" I'm sure Lauren knew where I was going from the look of fear and anger spread across her face. The other girls were just patiently waiting for me to continue.

"Yes, him. His name is Vico, h-he uh, he-"

"Take a deep breath Ninj, we are on your side, always." Normani tried calming me down. I could do this, I needed closure and this is step one.

"He raped me." As I said those words I closed my eyes, terrified on what their expressions would be. The thought of them seeing me different made my eyes start to fill with tears. Saying those words yet again crushed me, but the only thing thats keeping me together was the girls.

Suddenly I heard a sniff, and it wasn't me this time. Soon one sniff turned into multiple sniffs. I had opened my eyes and my vision was blurry from the tears welding up. My heart broke when I saw my favorite five girls crying. They tried to keep their sobs in but I could tell Camila was struggling. They look just as broken as I was.

"Oh my god. I can't believe that happened to you! I swear once I find that piece of shit-"

"DJ calm down." Lauren said rubbing the side of Dinah's arms.

"Y/N? Tell us, why is he still affecting you?" Ally asked. She knew I wanted closure, so she pushed me to talk.

"Because he broke me. Every bruise, every scar, every lesson he taught m-"

"Lesson?" Camila cut in.

"Thats what he called it. He shielded the word 'rape' with 'lessons'. He said its how the real world would treat me. He made me afraid, so afraid that I thought of him as protection. Sometimes he'd protect me from people at school, he'd comfort me but then he'd want something in return. He is the reason I hate boys. Thats why I befriended a gay one instead of a straight one." I looked up to see all of the girls were focused on me, they were listening. Thats all anyone ever really needs, is for people to listen.

"Where is he now?" Ally seemed hesitant to ask this question. I'm sure she thought she was crossing the line, but really she was just where she needed to be to help me.