Welcome to my story!
So all of this began in 5th grade, yeah it was an amazing year but it was hard to fit in with people, get along, make new friends, mostly, becoming a 3rd or 4th wheel.
I had the trouble with having friends and fitting in mostly, the thing is, whenever I'm around with people my friends of course, I guess I knew I was invisible and they were probably like oh I don't have time for her or probably they just forget about me or something and it made me feel useless and worthless so I tried doing something I should have never done, that I'm not sharing.
Was I mean, ugly.... Stupid.
I was all those 3 things, I realized that right now, my mistake but do they even know that I could change? Become prettier and smarter? No. I didn't want to change because that was me being me.
Don't cry.
I cried every night trying to figure out what was wrong with me, haven't figured it out but it was probably because I was STUPID
STUPID STUPID STUPID
*tears are going down my face*
That's it, they just liked smart people, I was stupid! Got embarrassed and emotional and I tried being smart but I knew I should've just not try. I should've just, quit since I knew I would fail being smart.
I'm tired of people only liking smart people. What about people who be their selves and need help?
I don't even know anymore, I decided to just try a new thing, crush on someone, that made me change my 5th grade self.
YOU ARE READING
Being alone
RandomJust a story of my life that has been bothering me and I decided to just try to see if people know what's been bothering my whole life, I've tried many things but all I needed was honesty to know why he or she or they didn't like me.
