When The Lights Come up

Driving In Silence

(Ok well i am extremely bored as it is 4 am and i have nothing to do so here goes nothing)
Trigger warning//mentions of suicide
Tyler's Pov

I haven't been sleeping very well lately and i dont know why. I break down for no reason and afterwards i feel so guilty because Debby lays there with my head in her hands crying with me as she doesn't know what to do. But the worst part is, when i make her promise not to tell Josh.

"Just let me tell him, he makes you feel better"

"No! He can't know who i am inside"

All this does is make me sob even harder.

Debby was sleeping, i couldn't let her lose sleep yet again so I silence my sobs.
And it just hit me as i laid my head down i need josh.
No one around in the dark cold night, I hear a sound. My phone ringing startled me as it interrupts my pattern of sobs.
I see 4:05 in teary eyes as i pick up my phone.

It was Josh. I cant answer him. Not like this. Then he texts me.

Josh: Tyler?! Why aren't you answering? Debby told me she heard you sobbing but she just doesn't know what to do any more.

Well there goes me trying to let her sleep.

I don't know what to do. I can't stop crying. I call him. He picks up almost instantly.

Tyler? Are you ok

I don't know. I cant stop myself. Josh i have to go. I say as i walk to my car.

Tyler no. He screams as i start my car and pull out of my driveway.

I hang up with shaky hands and i can hardly see anything through the tears in my eyes.

I can't help but text him.

Tyler: I truly love you Josh. More than anything. More than life itself. You deserve better. That's why i need to do this. I hope the water's not as cold as last time. I love you Joshua William Dun.

I write a note and put it on my dashboard.
It reads: I love you. Know that.

As i pull up to the bridge it's silent. No cars driving by, nobody to call the hospital this time. This time it will work. Nobody can stop me. I decided i had nothing to lose so i leave my car on.

If my car radio wasn't stolen, i would've played it as loudly as possible, my phone in the aux cord.

I walk up to the bridge. I sit at the edge and admire the beauty of the night sky on the water. The water that didn't do its job last time. The water i was giving one more chance to finish the job.

I slowly begin to stand up, and just as i begin to jumo forward, tears in my eyes, somebody's arms are around me. I turn around face to face with Josh. Just after him I see his friend Mark, and then Brendon appears.

I can't stop myself. I sob as loudly as humanly possible into Josh's shirt him cradling me and crying along with the others doing the same.

"Josh, why?" are the only words i can manage to croak out.

"I know you want to leave but Tyler, please don't take your life away from me" he sobs louder.

I can't manage to force out any words so we sit there sobbing until he speaks again voice cracking and raspy "I know it might be a little selfish for me to say, but i need to know, if you thought of me at all today?"

"Only all day" i choke out

I needed him. I needed him too much.