A Love to Last A Lifetime// Camren

I Saw

"So what are your tour busses like? Do you guys ever get annoyed being cramped in together?" The interviewer asked. Camila smiled and popped up to tell a story. "Oh my gosh! One time Dinah and I both had to go to the bathroom at the same time and-" "Camila, stop!" Dinah yelled cutting her off before she could finish the embarrassing story. "Sorry..." She said as everyone started laughing. "Yeah, it does get pretty annoying, but we love each other so it's manageable." Normani said leaning over to hug Dinah. "I WANT A HUG TOO!" Camila yelled joining in. Lauren cracked a small smile but quickly went back to staring at her bracelets. "Yeah, plus we have our own space anyway so its okay." Ally added.

Lauren's makeup was beginning to rub off her fragile wrists and it was making her heart beat even faster knowing her small scars were surfacing. It was hard to focus on anything else when they were visible. She tried her best to keep her mind focused on her best friends voices, smiling every once and a while and joining in here and there, but she couldnt get the thought out of her mind about how once she got back to their tour bus she could easily grab her blade and slip into the bathroom to feel relief and make her heart stop pounding. It was the only way she knew.

The girls had stopped hugging and the interviewer began to speak again. "Okay now some questions from twitter, @jaureguibunny128 asks 'Whats your favorite song to preform on tour?'" "Ooh that's a good one. I think my favorite would be Boss! The dance moves are just so fun to perform and when we all do it  right and together it looks amazing!" Ally said. "I agree! Plus dancing on a chair is really fun." Dinah giggled. "What about you Camila?" Dinah asked hitting her shoulder.

Camila had been staring at Lauren, studying her, this is the first time she realized Lauren really was sick and needed someone. She needed to find a way to confront her though, but she didn't know how. Her head popped up when Normani asked her the question and she quickly went back into her high energy mode, making sure no one would be suspicious anything was going on. "I like Miss Movin On." The girls gave her weird looks. "Camila! What the heck!" Dinah laughed. Camila giggled. "Okay okay I like Boss too, but I fall off the chair a lot sooooo..."

The interview soon ended, it was a short one and the girls were off. They were in Texas and Ally insisted they went to the waffle house. The girls knew not to fight and went along.

They walked over and took a seat in the booth near the windows where Ally liked to sit. Camila sat accross from Lauren so she could keep an eye on her and Ally babbled on as always about how amazing the food here is and how much she loves Texas and what everyone should get, but all Camila could focus on was how Lauren played with the salt shaker and didnt even acknowledge anyone, it was like she was in a trance.

Technically Lauren was, she was lost in her thoughts and just stared down and played with the salt. She poured some out onto the table and drew swirls in it with her finger while Camila watched intently.

"Howdy ladies! What can I get you this fine evening!?" The waitress asked in an annoyingly peppy voice. Lauren's head popped right up with a nice smile along with it. Her head rested on the palm of her hand, which would have given Camila a clear view of her wrist if Lauren hadnt insited on grabbing a leather jacket before they came here. had grabbed her leather jacked before they came here. "Ill have two chocolate chip pancakes, what about you Lauren?" Camila asked. "Umm same." Lauren smiled, but immediately went back to the tiny mountain of salt.

Was Lauren always like this? Camila wondered. How could she not have noticed her best friend was hurting? "Lauren?" she asked. "Hmm." She responded, still playing with the salt. "Whatcha doin?" Lauren stopped and looked at Camila. "Nothing, im just bored. I used to do this as a kid all the time but my mom would always yell at me." She giggled. "But no one can yell at me now." She smiled. Lauren may be in a trance of her own, but that beautiful smile could put Camila in a trance for days.