Just can't Help It | BxB|

waiting to exhale

Christiano POV:

             Jordan was a sleep in the room, so I decided to play 2k in the living room. Kinda figured he didn't want to be bothered by the way he kissed me and laid down. Once I found out what happen at the game shit kinda pissed me off. I knew Jamar didn't like Jordan due to the fact I choice Jordan over him.

He wasn't a fighter, just a pretty boy so I'm assuming he told his brother to do something to Jordan. Typical him. Even  felt like half of this was because of me, but I couldn't tell Jordan that. It was getting pretty late anyways, turning off the game walking back into my room Jordan was stretched out across my bed.

Watching him sleep reminded me why I choose him, that pretty ass face with those perfectly natural arched eyebrows. I kissed him pulling him closer to me. He mumbled stop Daniel pushing me away from him.

             Daniel? I thought to myself, after that I didn't want to cuddle. He rolled back over to his side turning away from me, couldn't help but stare at him "Daniel though?" I whispered to myself. That shit hit me kinda hard, Jordan has never called me another dude name.

Before I knew it he turned facing me with his eyes wide open, could've sworn he was laying there reading my mind the way he was looking at me. "Everything okay?" I asked as he leaned up breathing hard.

"Jay you're scaring me bae?" I said grabbing his shoulder. "I'm fine just a bad dream" he replied laying his head on my lap. "Better been calling me another nigga name" I mumbled hoping he didn't hear me. He didn't say anything so I assumed he didn't.

He dozed back off as I was running my fingers through his now curly hair. Hated the fact I couldn't stay here long with him, I had to head back home in the morning. It kills me being away from him, the longer I stayed away the more I felt Jordan slipping from me.

Shit kinda hurt man, actually thought about proposing to him but I knew if I did that he would run from me, it's too soon. Just have to find out away to keep him here with me until he graduates and come out there with me.

Pretty scary situation honestly, with me playing ball trying to make it pro being with him would be hard in the future.

We never talked about our future in the long run just been enjoying the now, even second gusted myself about being with him at times too. Sucks to say that, but it's true, I couldn't leave him though I love him too much.

He kelp moving in his sleep, for a minute I thought my thoughts were waking him but I had to remember I was talking to myself in my head. My phone was ringing, I knew from the ringtone who it was.

Incoming call : Jamar.
"What?" I asked trying not to wake jay.

"You home?" He asked as I heard the radio playing in the background.

"Why?" I asked, as I turned down my phone volume.

"Umm because I'm outside come here please" he asked begging me.

"For what man? I'm not trying to do this tonight" I said pulling the phone from my ear, moving Jordan back to his pillow.

"Just come bye" he said hanging up the phone not giving me a chance to speak.

Jordan was knocked out sleep, baby must've really been tired from his game. Rolling out of bed finding my slippers and my sweater walking out the door not trying to wake him. Jamar car was parked next to Jordan's as he walked up to me smiling.