The Trials of Love

I'm Here to Stay

It was Sunday afternoon and Sheva and Nadia were at a hair salon getting Sheva's hair done for the dance. Sheva didn't really care how she looked at this point. Every time the woman asked her if she liked the style so far she just nodded without even looking at her reflection in the large mirror in front of her, she was too busy thinking about Chris.

After their conversation yesterday, Sheva stayed in her room the rest of the day burying herself deeper in her pain and regret every time she thought about the fact that Chris was crying over her. She cried until she couldn't produce anymore tears and Nadia had to keep bringing her water to make sure she stayed hydrated. She even had to stay in her room and wait for her to drink the water because Sheva was saying she wanted to be dehydrated. Nadia knew it was just out of sadness and knew she didn't actually mean it. She asked her about five times how the conversation went but Sheva just kept shaking her head and crying. She ended up staying with her until 1 in the morning when she finally cried herself to sleep. Sheva didn't sleep for long though. She woke up around 5 and stayed up for the rest of the morning, but then she had to get up for her hair appointment.

"Alright honey, we are done! You look beautiful!" The woman said as she took a step back to admire her work. Sheva finally looked up and was surprised at how her hair turned out. Her hair looked fluffy and shiny and all of it was swept to the side in curls on her shoulder and there were small white flowers placed randomly in her curls.

"How do you like it?" Nadia asked. "I think you look beautiful."

"I love it." Sheva told them quietly with a small smile. "Thank you." Sheva told the woman as she stood up from the chair. They walked to the front and Nadia paid the woman then they were on their way to get her makeup done. While they were in the car at a red light, Nadia decided to try and make some conversation.

"The dance is about two hours away. Are you excited?"

"Not really... I don't think Chris is going and he's the only reason I want to go." Sheva told her as she looked down at her joined hands.

"I thought he was going with... you know..." Nadia said cautiously, not wanting to make Sheva cry again because once it started she doubted it would stop anytime soon.

"I don't think they are going together. When we talked... last night he said that he didn't want to be with Jill and he told me to have fun at the dance... so I don't think he's going." Sheva told her sadly.

"Oh... well you could still go with your friends." Nadia said trying to brighten the mood.

"His friends?" Sheva said, correcting her.

"Sheva, they are your friends too."

"They were his first and the last thing I want to do is hurt him more by taking his friends." Sheva admitted.

"I thought he hurt you? What did you do to hurt him, tell him the truth?" Nadia asked confused.

"I lied to him, mom! I told him I hated him, but I don't! I still love him but he thinks I hate him and I made him cry but I didn't mean to, I just wanted him to feel how hurt I was!" Sheva blurted out and started crying again.

"Sheva you need to stop crying first of all. You can't do all that when you get your make up done. And second of all why in the world would you tell him you hate him?! That is the worst thing you could have said! I mean that was the meanest of mean Sheva." Nadia told her disappointed.

"I didn't mean to mom! You don't think I feel bad about that?! If I could take it back I would! I would take back everything I said and just tell him I love him!" Sheva told her, trying not to cry. Sheva grabbed some tissues out of the glove compartment, wiped her face clean, and tried to calm down.