Hold Me Tight

I've got to let you know

I had just been laying around for a couple of days after I had found out about the baby, trying to get my head around it all really. John had called round a few times but my Mom had told him that i was still ill so I couldn't see him and truth be told I was scared about seeing him because of how he will react when I tell him the news so all I could do was pick the right moment and hope that he would stay with me to bring the child up.

Johns POV
'Alright Johnny' Paul said as I sat next to him on the bus on the way to Petes for band practice, 'yeah' I replied bluntly. He looked at me then sighed in his usual way which made me feel bad for being blunt but I didn't mean to be, I was just worried sick about Jade which occupied all my thoughts. 'Sorry mate' I started until Paul cut in 'it's alright John! I can tell something's got you thinking' he spoke softly which made me feel comfortable to speak to him, 'what are you? A fucking psychic?' I kidded with him trying to hide my worries. Paul could always see right through me so he persisted in trying to get me to talk to him, 'Maybe I am. Anyway it's better out that in John' Paul said which was true enough and to be honest he was the only one i could talk to without being mocked for being soft and all that. He smiled and listened contently as I spoke, 'in a nutshell.. I haven't seen Jade for nearly a week because she's sick so I am really worried that the outcome will be bad. I love her like crazy and I miss her so much, I need to hold her, kiss her, just to see her would be enough. I need her.' I said it quickly but emphasised the last three words because they were the key part - I need her so much, she is special and I can't loose her. It felt good to tell someone about my feelings for her and Paul understood completely, 'love is a tough thing that comes with feelings like that. You just miss her, so go and see her right now, just show her how much you care through concern.' He had so much wisdom for a 16 year old boy so I took his advice and made sure I saw Jade almost straight away.

Jades POV
I was starting to come to grips with the pregnancy so I felt ready to talk about it to John even though I knew it would be a huge shock to him and I had plenty of time to think about what to say as he most likely wouldn't come around until tomorrow morning.
'Mom' I shouted upstairs 'can you come here a minute please?' Then I heard her coming downstairs and she sat on the sofa next to me, 'what's the matter Jade?' She asked smiling at me, 'What should I say to John?' I asked her looking down at the floor. I noticed Mom sigh slightly then she took my hand and held it, 'It's hard to say really, I mean you know John so you know how to talk to him but make sure you tell him that it's going to be okay and you can do it together' as she said it I smiled at the thought of just seeing him, 'just say it as it is then?' I said as there was a knock on the door. I really hoped it was John but I knew it couldn't be because he only called around in the mornings but I listened carefully to find out who it was anyway. Mom opened the door then I heard his voice, it was John!
He walked into the living room and I ran to him and threw my arms around him as he did the same, 'John!' I exclaimed and hugged him tightly, 'John, I missed you so much' then he cut me off to kiss me on the lips quickly, 'Jade, I missed you too' he whispered as he kissed my neck and held me tight for a minute or two. Once we finished hugging I took his hand and we walked over to the sofa where I sat cross legged facing him, 'so honey, how are you?' He asked in a caring manner, so I just took that moment to tell him, 'well, I'm alright I suppose but...but...' Then John cut in,
'Jade spit it out' he smiled, so I did,
'I'm pregnant with your baby' I said it all in one breath and as tear rolled Down my cheek and John wiped it away, 'what? You can't be fucking pregnant' he said in a relatively calm way for John, 'but is going to be alright' I said softly to calm him down which turned his angry look into a forced smile, 'actually your right, it will be fine. We'll bring this kid up to be loved and we will be a real family' he said as he smiled and pulled me into his lap with our hands intertwined which made me so relieved that he was alright with it. I smiled like a Cheshire Cat when my Mom walked in because I wanted to tell her that we were going to make it work which when I told her made her smile but it turned into a frown when she looked at me on Johns lap, 'it's great that you'r going to try but you have had to learn the hard way. One mistake has cost you a lot' Mom said firmly which made me a bit angry, 'yes Mom we know but sleeping together was not a mistake because we're in love' I quickly replied making her look shocked, 'it's going to be a bumpy road' she added and then walked back upstairs leaving John and I on our own. I looked John in the eye and planted a kiss on his cheek, 'what are we going to do then?' I asked,
'We'll have to get married, tell Mimi, I'll get a job and then buy a place for us' John said holding onto me, my head under his chin, 'yep' I whispered feeling sleepy. John moved a bit to make us more comfortable 'Jade, how far gone are you?' He whispered into my ear,
'Only about two months' I replied still snuggled into him then he rested his hand on my stomach and stroked it gently, 'fucking hell Jade we're going to be parents'.