GREY [on hold]

Green

We spent the rest of the school day sitting out there. In the middle of no where. No one or anything to disturb us. We just talked. We talked about the simple things, the delicate things, and the complicated things. We laughed and joked. And as I sat there watching him, I realized how happy he looked, and how beautiful and warm that happiness felt.

I sat criss-cross picking the surrounding flowers as we talking, creating a bundle. Flipping my hair behind my shoulders as it continued to fall into my smile.

He was now even closer to me, and we continued to talk. Then fell a silence, a silence that made it hard to swallow. Suffocating was it. He was leaning on his hand which was on the ground only centimeters away from my leg. My hair eventually fell into my eyes again, and as I was just about to push it away, his hand reached up and gently tucked it behind my ear. His fingers barely brushing against my skin as he did it. He felt cold. But some how warm at the same time.

He looked me straight in the eyes. His eyes full of emotion. He was so close.

Chase cleared his throat, furrowed his brows while looking down, and sat back. I finally breathed again. He pulled out his phone from his back Jean pocket and checked the time, "we better head out soon, school is bouta get out, do you have a ride home?" He asked, eyes still on his phone.

I blinked a few times, realizing that our time together was coming to an end, "um, yeah, my mom picks me up..." He looked up at me, his crystal eyes flickering with every blink.

He didn't respond, only rose to his feet as I watched him. Then my phone buzzed in my pocket.

The name Trevor was now on my lockscreen.

My heart stopped. I slowly unlocked my phone and opened the message:

Hey Remington, I've been wanting to give you a proper apology, meet me behind the the school in 30 minutes?

I gave a puzzled look to the message, Chase must've seen my worry.

"What is it?" He said a bit concerned.

I bit my lip contemplating exactly what to say, "Oh, um, nothing, it was just my mom telling me she'll be picking me up a bit late." I lied.

He nodded in okay and reached out a hand towards me, I placed my phone back in my pocket and accepted his offer as he helped me up.

I held my bundle of flowers in my other hand, making sure not drop them and lose them in the surrounding piles of identical flowers.

I trailed behind Chase as my mind wondered to Trevor. The tall, lean, green-eyed boy. How I adored him...

I adored him.
He hurt me.
No.
He didn't.
I adored him.

My head spinned around, who was Trevor?

Was he the sweet dark haired boy that always smiled?

My spine trembled with every thought.

Was he the dangerous boy who didn't take no for an answer?

I clenched my jaw.

No. That's chase. Chase is the bad boy. Remember?

My eyes flicked up to the back of chase and my mouth went dry.

What am I doing here with a bad boy?!

I looked around at all the trees and flickered my eyes. I reached my hands out to grasp anything in reach, I felt dizzy.

What am I doing here with this boy?
He could hurt me!
He's dangerous!

My eyes fell back and the light danced in between the leaves onto my now pale skin, like a porcelain puppet, I danced with the sound of the wind. The sight of everything blurred together into an elegant portrayal. I felt the heaviness of my feet drowning into the earth beneath me. I could feel my lungs expand as I inhaled the whispers of the air.