Don't leave...We need you (5SOS Ashton Irwin) *COMPLETED, EDITING*

12: The guilt is too much to handle.

12: The guilt is too much to handle.

I am sitting in my bunk with Leo. I need the loo so I pull Leo out of my bunk and put him into The spare bunk above me, drawing back the curtain. This is just because I don't want him to run off as he could fall down the stairs which are pretty steep.

"Lolo, Bessa is going to the toilet, Ok stay here?" Leo nods and I walk in the direction of the bathroom.

*Ashtons POV*

I wake up in the upstairs lounge to a huge thump.

"Are you alright?" I call. There is no answer so I go and see what it was.

The sight in front of me is not what I want to see.

"Leo? Lolo" I rush over to the unconscious Leo and try to shake him awake.

"LUKE, BECCA" I shout at the top of my lungs, starting to panic now.

I role Leo over into the recovery position making sure that his airway is open and he is breathing. I hear a clatter of footsteps and I look over my shoulder to see worried Luke and Becca.

"Luke ambulance now"

"The hospital is 30 minutes away, it will be quicker to drive" Says a british accent from behind both Becca and Luke. It belonged to Louis.

By this point Luke is kneeling beside me and like I did, is checking Leos airways.

Becca is panicking and Harry is comforting her.

"Yeah but we can't drive" I nearly scream at Louis.

"I can" He says quietly.

"Then lets go!" Becca screams sobbing. I want so badly to comfort her but Harry is doing a good job.

I scoop Leo up and follow everyone down the stairs. Now joining us was Calum, Michael and Niall all wondering whats going on.

"Leos hurt" Louis says. Now outside he leads us to his Range Rover.

I pass Leo over to Luke who was asking for him before climbing in beside him. Becca gets in beside me and I wrap my arms around her.

Calum gets in the front beside Louis and both Harry and Niall get into the boot. Michael stays behind to inform management and Paul (1ds manager) as to whats going on.

Everything goes by in a blur. For the whole journey Becca clings onto me sobbing into my chest. I glance at Leo, still unconscious. Luke is rubbing his hand up and down Leos back, hopeing Leo can feel it even if he is unconscious.

*Beccas POV*

Leo is hurt and it's my fault. We are in Louis' car and he is driving us to the hospital. I only left him for a few minutes but I was stupid too. Everyone know's 3 year olds can easily fall off of bunk beds. I am utterly stupid. I don't want to admit it was my fault, but I know I will have to at the hospital. I don't want to admit it because I will seem as though I cannot care for Leo, when I suppose I can't if I let that happen but still I rely on Leo to keep me going and if i'm not allowed near him then I don't know how I will survive.

What I am feeling right now is just like what I feel like at night only 10 times worse knowing that what has just happened is my fault and that everyone else will hate me when they find out.

I cling onto Ashton, scared at the fact that Leo could be seriously hurt.

*Lukes POV*

I cradle the broken 3 year old helpless little boy in my arms holding him into me. The prospect of life without him is to painful to even imagine. I have already decided to do everything I can, sign all the papers they want me too, to save him.