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Dear Elliot,

After Twelve years of working together this is how you choose to leave with no goodbye? I want let you know that hurts, and you were the best relationship I never had. I don't know what will be like not seeing you every day. I understand you are leaving the SVU and me because you can't handle the victims and the price we pay. You not are being able to be with your family, this leaving you to fight Kathy. I'm hurt because you didn't even talk to me about leaving. Why would you having Cragen tell me that you leaving wouldn't hurt and less? Elliot I understand you left because you wanted to make things better and you just had Eli. But Elliot where do I fit in the picture? I know I mean more to you than just a partner to you. You mean more than a partner to me. You know all my secrets and fears, what am I to do now?

I know everyone here at the SVU is worried about me and what about to do. Cragen is sending me undercover. I'm worried about if I can do this case El. Now I don't have you to back me up and I don't trust Fin and much like I trust you, who will I call if I feel like it is too much for me? Over the years somehow I feel in love with you and now you're gone. I don't know what I am supposed to do or how to feel.

Sincerely,

You're Olivia