These past few days have been nothing but depressing.
I've Tried so hard to be a superwoman
Come at your rescue, and solve the problems that you needed addressing.
But when I get words that tells me you're lieing, it feels like I'm talking to a brick wall.
You're enclosing your feelings and I can't get through enough to you at all,
and it's just stressing.
I'm at a mental war against society,
but with my own battles that I need to fight, I'm so confused as to who I'm Really impressing.
society is winning, And every day I seem to fall more into depression,
And God if you hear me up there, I'm still praying on that blessing.
If rain is my bliss, than can you make a drought happen?
My fingers are tapping, God,I'm waiting for a life lesson!
Or more so a spiritual break through ,
That's why I'm praying for you to come through.
Lessening,
My positivity and optimism is fading.
My world is slowly turning from colors to black and white, it needs saving.
I'm just about tired of picking up My own same pencil and trying to fill The color in with what's already shaded. My fate and hope in better days has long faded.
Somebody come save me, I'm the one who needs saving. Everyday I try to hold on, but I'm only constantly breaking.
I can't even rely on myself anymore with the Choices and bad decisions im making.
Walking around in a bottle for years with a smile on, but I'm faking.
I'm saying,
My bubble needs to be popped. The outside reality is my enemy,
Thick walls up on the inside, and a heart that just stopped.
How can you save someone who lives in the feeling of broken-ness like it's home,and is blind to saving?
Introvert is my persona, and I'm mentally and emotionally breaking.
Walking around alive and breathing, but dead as a zombie on the inside, because my happy soul has been taken.
I'm a walking Michael Jackson thriller,
pain and heartbreak are my killers.
No moving on.
my flame is burned out, and the happy optimistic soul In me is gone.
I just don't see how people can do a kind hearted person so wrong.
The people that made me feel special either lied to me or led me on.
They've told me it's together forever,
but now they're gone.
They left me alone.
Even when I tried to stop it from crumbling, they wanted to let it fall.
No text, no call.
I'm the one who had to do all the effort. The lies were just grander,They left with no turning back,
and moved on to someone better...
My trust issues are now hung up on my highest wall.
I know I'm not completely unloved,
but when the anger leaks through your family member's words,
to me the anger unleashes all True emotions...the pain is still evident no matter how many times they say, "I didn't mean that at all. They were nothing but plain words that were spoken."
Bad things fall Apart ,so better things can come together.
It's a rainbow after every storm, no matter how bad the weather. Than where the hell is the better?
because I've been coming up short believing in better days, and I don't know if I can Wait forever!
But God will make it happen eventually, so for now I'll just keep my positivity.
Even though life has been a crappy mess,
all my hope Is in you, the one thing left that gives me hope and happiness.
