Trust (A Jai Brooks Imagine)

Chapter 15

Jai's P.O.V.
What the fuck have I done? I should of never kissed that lady. What kind of boyfriend am I? I'm not even her boyfriend. I broke up with her and I regret doing it. This would have never happened if I just had some trust in her. I hate myself so much.

I'm at Subway on my own since Luke got pissed and left me. I can't tell May what I've done after all that shit with Brent. I should call Matt and see what he thinks. I need a brother right now.

I started ringing Matt. I waited a good 30 seconds before I heard a "Hello?".
"Yo Matt, it's Jai." I spoke into the phone.
"Hey Jai, what's up?"
"A lot is up. Come meet at Subway next to my house."
"Okay."

I sat at Subway waiting. After about 20 minutes, Matt came through the door. We made eye contact and he came towards me.
"What's up." He slapped my hand. "Okay well, I wanted to buy May a present before we go tomorrow, and I knew she really wanted this bracelet." I showed him the bracelet. He nodded. "When I asked the woman if I can buy it she said that it was sold out. After she knew how desperate I was for it so she made a deal. If I kissed her, she'll give me the bracelet." Matt had his eyes closed. "Please don't tell me you did it." I had my fingers near my mouth. Matt shook his head at me. He stood up. "You don't deserve her. You better tell her what you did or I swear that gorgeous face of yours won't be so gorgeous." He had his index finger near my nose. I was getting really angry.
"Don't you fucking dare threaten me like you're her boyfriend. I know I don't deserve her. I know what I did was wrong but I did it to make her happy. All I wanted to do what get the bracelet and give it to her. You could see the look in her eyes when she looks at it. She really wants it. I'm sure you would do the same if you were in my position. She was 15 when we saw the bracelet. She tried it on. She loved it. But when she saw the price, you could see how disappointed she was. She didn't even speak to me until we got home. Something about this bracelet makes her so happy. I wanna give her this present. I love her. I would do anything to get her back." Matt looked at me. I was crying just a little bit at this point. Matt looked like he was about to cry. "Just don't hurt her okay." he walked away.

I just want to be with May. I'm no good for her. All I do is hurt her. I can't be with her. I shouldn't even make this effort to see her because I'm going to hurt her again.

I started making my way home. Once I got home, I just got to bed. I wanted Sunday to come so I can just tell her the truth and leave. I saw the door open and in walked Luke and Sheila. They both looked at me awkwardly. "So..." Sheila broke the silence. "You kissed a girl for a bracelet?" She looked at me like I'm crazy. "You don't understand." I replied and tried to get my sleep. Luke was getting changed. Looks like they're going out. Before they left, Luke looked at me and said "Be careful. Think about what you want because it looks like you don't even know what you want." You got that right Lukey. He then left with Sheila.

We leave tomorrow. I need to think. What do I want. I want May to be happy. But I want her to be mine also. But that can't happen at the same time because I wasn't thinking right and I kissed a random slut at a jewellery store for god sake.

I got some sleep until I was woken up by the sound of Sheila and Luke. Looks like she's staying over. We're leaving tomorrow anyway.

Matt texted me:

Matt: yo are you okay

Me: as good as a plum hun wby

Matt: good just checking up on you

Me: lmao ok

No one ever checks up on me. I was so confused. Luke later came in and sat next to me. "Do you know what you want?" He asked in a pissed off mood. "I want May. But I don't wanna hurt her." I said even more pissed. "Well friend, you're in a sticky situation because either way, you're gonna hurt her." "Lukey brother, I'm just as pissed as you are son." I didn't know what to do. "You know you should just tell her and if you are sorry you would beg for her forgiveness." I guess he's right. I should just tell her the truth. "Thanks Luke." I smiled and hugged him.

I'm gonna try my hardest to get May back. I need her. Even if she just wants to be friends. I want to be around her like always. I miss the way we would talk to each other about everything. I miss how she would come to me when she's upset. I miss everything about her. Not only so I miss her, I love her.

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