Too much to lose

Not at least till i have to

i know it's short but oh well, thanks so much for reading this far i love you all... even you Sarah.

"Wow" he breathed when I finished my story. 

"I know" I sighed. "Sorry to dump this on you" 

"It's fine" he laughed. "So have you ever done anything like that before?"

"She was first and last" I replied. 

"I see" he said thoughtfully trying to take in the new information I had thrust at him. 

"Have you ever thought about another girl like that?" He asked. 

"No" I replied. 

"So… both?" He said looking confused. 

"I believe you fall in love with whoever you fall in love with" I explained. "Gender shouldn't be a factor" 

"I agree" he smiled. He hugged me closer and kissed the top of my head. "You okay?" 

I nodded silently and tried to recompose myself. 

"That's all in the past now" I smiled. 

"When was the last time she called you?" He challenged.

"A few months ago" I replied awkwardly. 

"Shouldn't you call her back?" He asked. "Or go see her? Ya know get some closure?" 

"Not till I have to" I sighed. 

"So, New York huh?" He changed the subject. 

"It's always been a dream" I smiled. 

"It's a great place" he shrugged. "Maybe we'll tour there someday" he scanned my face like he was looking for a reaction. 

"Maybe you will" I replied. 

"No" he corrected "maybe we will" 

"Are you asking me-?" I couldn't think of words. 

"Come on tour with us" he grinned taking my hands in his. "I know I sound crazy but I can't imagine the thought of you moving away" 

I stared at his excitedly expectant face.

"Okay" I agreed and he cheered before pulling me down on top of him.