Pistanthrophobia

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"Kirra" "Kirra"

I just fall to the floor.

limp.

not doing anything.

I wake up in my room. everything is so bright, I don't like it... I sit up in my bed and look around my room. I completely forgot we were remodeling, there's shit everywhere. at least now I have a closet and air conditioning and a bigger bed. woo for bigger beds, am I right?

I get up and walk out into the hall and see that my brother in his room. God he's so lazy all he does is just sit there playing video games and eat all of our food... I could be eating that food. but anyways. I walk into the bathroom and open the drawer and pull out my toothbrush and toothpaste and starting brushing my teeth, in the process I walk back to my room and grab my phone. I slide to unlock it and start scrolling through Instagram.

wait wait wait. 

I spit out my toothpaste and finish up then go back to my room and shut the door.

what. the. living. crap. is. this.

me, casually just brushing my teeth and scrolling through my feed and I find this picture. this picture, being a picture of me and I don't even know who making out on the floor... matter of fact on the grass. who the hell makes out on the grass. I hate grass. shit I messed of been so out of it last night... the last thing I remember was probably trying to find Madison after seeing Liam and that slut go upstairs, and then finding Madison making out with Stefan so she was no help. I then went to the kitchen to get a drink, I honestly don't know why I go to these stupid parties. what? so I can watch the guy I basically fell head over heals for hook up with all the girls I hate?

I start going through my feed again but my phone dings and I thought it would be Madison or Kailyn... it was Ethan. whoever the hell Ethan was.

e- it was great talking and stuff with you last night😉😋

wtf... is he the guy from the picture?

why was I making out with him in the first place?

I text Madison and start going on and on about how I have no idea what even happened last night and she finally texts me back and tells me about how after she saw Liam with Alyson. I fucking hate Alyson... I went to get a drink. maybe that's why I got so drunk. then she told me about how she saw me see him and her go upstairs to one of the rooms and I just continuously started drinking until I walked outside and I fell in the middle of the yard yelling at the sky about how theres not enough stars in the sky and just laid there for about five minutes until she walked past thinking I had gotten up but instead someone came down, and sat there with me. I guess after the party that guy, I'm guessing Ethan, and Kailyn drove me home. that's how I ended up in my own bed. still wearing the same clothes. from last night. yay fun.

wow. props to Ethan. made me feel better about myself by sitting with me on the grass in my time of need. scoring a make out sesh. seeing my piece of crap house and putting me to bed. and having a picture of us during our make out sesh posted on IG. go Ethan!

I should probably text him back right? right. be a good person Kirra.

k- hey! I was actually hoping you could meet me somewhere? I kinda want to talk...

e- I kinda knew you would say that, sure Starbucks? half and hour?

k- yea, great! see you soon.

well I basically just fucked myself over seeming as I just woke up, I look like a semi hit me, and yea...

I walk into my closet and pick out a red and white flannel with black shorts and my black high tops.

I go over to my desk and start to put concealer on because it's a Saturday and let's be honest I don't need to look that good. I curl my lashes and apply a couple coats of mascara. I brush my hair and put it half up and half down because j obviously don't have time to shower and blow dry it.

I grab my phone off the charger and start walking downstairs.

"I'm going to see a friend, be back soon!" I yell out to whoever can hear. I start walking and it only took me 10 minutes to get there.

I walk into Starbucks and see a tall dark haired boy sitting alone at one of the tall seated tables. i slowly start to walk towards him but he looks up and waves at me. whew, great now I now that's actually him. I walk over and sit down in the high seat across from him.
"hey.." I say with a kind of hesitant voice
"hey, so what'd you want to talk about?" he asks
"about last night...what exactly happened? did we..." I slowly start to drift off hoping he cuts me off with an answer
"no. oh no. no no no... not that I wouldn't have wanted to. but you were like completely wasted, I wouldn't do that. I'd want you to remember" he says with a wink
"oh good. oh god. that's great, sorry not that I wouldn't have wanted to either it's just that j don't remember anything after probably like my fifth cup in a row standing in the kitchen..." laughing while saying this I look straight at him.

if you actually look at him... he's pretty cute. dark undone hair, chocolate brown eyes, beautiful jaw line, I swear if he has a nice body.
"hello?" he says starting at me laughing
"oh! I'm so sorry, kinda just spaced out." I say while scratching the back of my neck
"oh no it's completely fine haha"

we finish up our conversation about how I was complaining about different types of foods last night and probably cried at least three times on his shoulder.
we start walking out and he stops me.

"hey... would you like to do this again? not talk about how drunk you were, but you know. like hang out?" he says with an uneasy smile
"of course" I say with a strong smile.
he straightens up his smile and kind of fumbles with his keys
"that's great, yea. um do you want a ride back? it's not problem really." he says with a concerned look
"I'm good I'm used... actually yea. that'd be great." I say smiling and walking towards his car.

the ride back wasn't awkward at all. we jammed out to "Cheerleader" by Omi and it was great.
I totally forgot he already knew where I lived and I forgot so I almost forgot to tell him where to go, luckily he already knew.

"bye! thanks for the ride. just text me or something." I say walking away
"bye! anytime, really. today was fun." he says while smiling and driving away.

that went a lot better then I expected. I walk in and yell out I'm home to whoever is here, if anyone is here. I jog up the stairs and into my room shutting the door and turning my speaker on and started playing "Cheerleader" I was just dancing around and then of course I ruin the mood by falling over my dirty clothes... love life:))

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wellllll I started another book(as you can see) but I swear I'm actually gonna try and keep up with this one and not abandon it like all the other ones lol

-angel:)