My heart's beating as I saw you smile,
But that smile was never meant for me.
You keep on giving this mixed emotions
but never thinked of me falling with that dangerous trap.
I knew that there was no place for me in your heart.
I'm trying to move on from you and I felt happy that you diverted your attention to someone so that I won't fall hard.
But when you had no choice you came back and mess up with me when things are almost okay and in the process of moving on.
I gave you a chance but when you saw a hole on the way to her heart, you left me alone, broken. I'm trying to move on again, carrying this painful feelings.
I met another guy and I'm starting to fall. I think of you and realized that I've completely moved on.
While I was happy with him, I suddenly knew that he was tied up with someone. We have mutual feelings but in a sudden moment, he left me and realize that he really love the other girl. Am I really that bad when it comes to love?
I managed the broken pieces in my heart and think of never to open up my heart again.
But days passed, I suddenly knew that the girl you like doesn't like you back. I felt happy because you felt what I experienced.
They say that when you love someone, you should be happy for them. But I'm not that dumb. I'm just trying to protect myself.
One day, you came to me and played with my heart as if you love me. You suddenly said that let's bring back before. I couldn't hear it clearly in my ears, but in my heart it's clear as crystal. You made me go crazy. Are you gonna play with me while letting me fall without your wide arms open?
But I'm afraid to love like literally love.Thinking about the stories and movies. All are in the books and movies about the possibilities about what might happen. Cause I know that everything will change once commitment occurs.
I just realized that I just like the chase and didn't know that feelings will change when you're official. I don't want you to stop running and at the same time didn't want you to reach the end.
