Friends with benefits???

...to hating and untrusting

I woke up to Matteo playing with my hair. Last night was amazing. We were both virgins but he seemed like a natural.

I smiled happy to wake up next to him, in his arms. I wanted this for the rest of my life. I think I may love him. But it's ok cuz I think he loves me back.

I opened my mouth ready to ask if he loves me when the door started opening. I put the sheet over my head afraid of being seen. "Oh hey I thought you went to the skate park with your girlfriend?" It was his mom. "Uh no she was busy"  Matteo answered. "To busy for her boyfriend? Oh well, I just came to get the laundry." She picked up the basket and left.

I took the sheets from over my head. "Your mom knew about us" I asked. "Yea, I really like you. I love you. I'm not gonna keep that a secret from my mom or anybody." Did he just say he loved me? Do I say it back? I do love him. At least I didn't say it first, right? "I gotta go." I got dressed and headed for the window. He said "Wait what about your skateboard?" "Just bring it to me later" I walked out onto the roof but then I stopped. I tucked my head back in "I love you too." I jumped off the roof and walked over to my house.

My house was just down the block from his. Half way there I noticed a girl that seemed quite familiar. "Christine?" I called out. "Oh hey Jada. I was just coming to visit you." "Me? How do you know where I live?" This was getting really freaky. First Matteo says 'I love you' now Christine in my neighborhood, looking for me. "You did silly." She didn't give me a chance to answer. "Well bye." I walked away turned around and asked her "Wait. Why were you looking for me?" She answered "You know, I forgot" and with the she walked off.

I turned the corner and walked up the houses driveway when I stopped to think. Why was Christine here? She's obviously hiding something. But what was it? And why did she walk farther down the community if she was leaving? I walked back down my driveway and turned the corner from which I came. She was hiding behind the bushes of Matteo's driveway.

His parents car pulled out the drive way and that's when Christine walked into the house. I walked over to the bushes Christine was standing by to get a better view. Matteo opened the door to let her in.

I waited there expecting her to walk out, but she's been in there for 15. I thought that was enough. I walked up to the door not sure if should ring the doorbell or just open it, when I heard a moan. Once I heard that I didn't have to think twice. I busted open that door like I was in CSI: Miami. I opened the door to find Matteo and Christine getting it on in the couch.

They stopped immediately. I picked up her clothes that was piled up on the floor. I walked over and threw them on her. "Get dressed." She took her clothes and walked to the bathroom. Matteo got up and walked towards me getting ready to hug me. I pushed him away and sat on the couch. "When did it start?" I asked him without making eye contact. He looked down at the floor. "Before us. We started dating the third week of school." I looked at him with a confused face. "But by then she was only there for a week." He looked at me and walked towards the couch slowly. "I know. She started dating Ben to cover it up and..." He stopped talking. By then he was already sitting on the couch. "And I was your cover up" I looked at him as a tear fell down my face. "Wasn't I?" "I fell in love with you. I really did. And I still love you" "So what happened between us yesterday, the sex, it wasn't your first time?" He grabbed my hands in his. "Of course it was. I called Christine over here to break up with her and... it all happened too fast." I dragged my hand away. "I think we happened too fast" I got up and looked at Christine who was standing outside the bathroom door. "You guys look good together." I walked out the house with just a tear or two running down my face then it hit me. The person I gave my heart to, just threw it on the ground and shattered it. I ran across the street and ducked behind a tree. I cried so hard my body probably had like 3% of water. Just when you love somebody, and you think they love you back