Unwritten Notes and Wounds

Chapter 22: New Circle of Friends :)

Gail's POV

Grabe kagabi ang drama ko no? Haha.. :)

Hindi ako makakapasok ngayon because my doctor scheduled my check up today.. I just hope I'm doing fine. I need to be optimistic in this kind of situation..

Nung sinabihan ako ni mama kagabi na lumaban ako.. Nabuhayan ulit ako ng loob.. 

"Gail, how've you been feeling recently?"

"I'm starting to loss appetite.."

"Are you starting to feel fatigue very often?"

"Yes doc.."

"Are you taking your medicines regularly?"

"Yes doc.."

"Okay.. Based on the symptoms you've been feeling, you have an AML or Acute Myeloid Leukemia.. You see, in your case your lymph nodes are the area affected.. I'm sorry but it became worst."

"But why doc?! You told me that if I take my medicines seriously everything will be okay?! So what's that AML you're talking about huh?!"

"Anak calm down. Don't stress yourself.. Listen to the doctor first.." Mom keeps on gliding her hands on my back to calm me down. What is this? What's happening?

"Your bone marrow cells don't mature the way they're supposed to. These immature cells, often called blast cells, just keep building up. That's how AML goes.. We need to take your medications to a higher level before it becomes worse and uncurable. You're only 14, so that means you have a great chance to survive this case. I will recommend a doctor for you in US. It will be better if you'll be treated there. The technology and medicines in US are more advance and effective compared here in the Philippines.. I'm sorry to say hija, but you should stay in the US for 1 year.."

"Why do I need to stay there if you're already here doc?! Besides, you just told me that I have a great chance to survive because I'm still young? Please doc... Do everything you can HERE in the Philippines.. I don't want to go in US."

"Hija if you really want to get cured, you should go to US. There they have complete medications and such for your disease. I'm sorry hija, but you don't have any other option."

"Can I just go there on December? Let me stay here for 9 mons. and I'll go to US."

"9 mons. is too long anak.. You shouldn't stay here for that long if you really want to get cured within a short time."

"But mom, I want to spend more time with my friends before I go to US."

"Hija here's the deal, I'll give you 4 more months to stay here. I will support your medications and your other needs regarding your disease.. But by July, you'll fly to US and get cured there. 4 months is enough to avoid more complications. Be disciplined when it comes to your medications if you want to get cured. Understood?"

"Fine. By July, I'll fly to US. I feel tired now doc. Just email my medicines to mom then we'll buy it. Mom let's go home."

Pagkadating na pagkadating sa bahay, pumunta agad ako sa laptop ko.. 

**NOW PLAYING: GOODBYE BY SECONDHAND SERENADE**

!!!!!PLAY VIDEO AT THE SIDE!!!!!!

I started typing..

Date: February 2, 20**

It's confirmed. I have an Acute Myeloid Leukemia. I've been searching every types of leukemias. And, I found out it's fatal.

"Acute myeloid leukemia starts in the bone marrow. This is the soft inner parts of bones. With acute types of leukemia such as AML, bone marrow cells don't mature the way they're supposed to. These immature cells, often called blast cells, just keep building up."

That's the explanation about my disease.. I still want to live. I want to spend more time with my friends.

My doctor said that the only way for me to get cured is go to US and consult the doctor he recommends for us. He said I need to stay there for 1 year. But 1 year is too long isn't it? What should I do? I'm starting to panick.. 

I can only stay here for 4 months, then I need to fly to US by July.. Without telling them.. Without telling him..

I need to get cured. I need to survive this case. I need to be strong for my love ones..

Why is this world so cruel?  Why should I suffer like this?

Nobody in school should know about this. I don't want them to worry for me..

Starting tomorrow, I'll do my best to really spend quality time with my friends and family.

I need to act like nothing's wrong.

I need to act like I have all the courage to face this.

I need to act like I'm not hurting.

I don't want them to pity me and just spend their time with me because they found out that I'm sick. I want them to spent time with them, because that's what they want.

I am brave. I can do this! I know God will help me.

After typing all my unspoken feelings, I took a bath for the second time to go out. I'll ask Carlienna to shop with me, so that I can enjoy this day.

Nagbihis na ako at nag-ayos ng buhok. Nag-bun lang ako at nag white plain tshirt and 3/4 pants. Nagdecide akong sunduin na mismo si Carlienna sa school niya. 

**END OF SONG**

"Uy! Best! Ba't ka nandito?Anong meron?"

"Wala lang namiss lang kita >3< tara gala ta'yo! My treat! ^____________^"

"Wow! Talaga treat mo?! Sure! Aba minsan lang ata mangyari to! Haha!"

"Annie wait!"

"Oh Nich bakit? Nakita ko to sa may bench naiwanan mo. Ikaw talaga. Ingatan mo nga yung notebook mong yan. Lalo na all about Math pa naman din yan."

"Ah! Salamat!"

"Wait, Gail Nerkie?! Ikaw ba yan?!"

"Oo Nicholas Syscrame ako to! :P Ang OA mo ha! Parang sobrang laki ng pinagbago ko para magreact ka ng ganiyan amp!"

"Wow Gail, you grew up prettier!"

"I know! Chos! Haha! "

"Pero siyempre mas maganda pa din sa'yo si Carlienna :P belat hahahaha!"

"Sira ka pa din hanggang ngayon! Hahaha"

"Annie before ka'yo umalis ipakilala muna natin si Gail sa mga friends natin!"

"Oo nga Gail dapat makilala mo mga circle of friends namin dito ni Nich!"

"Sure!" Pinapasok ako nila Carlienna at Nicholas sa loob.. 

"Guys! You should meet Annie's bestfriend. This is Gail Nerkie." Naghello silang lahat sa akin at ang babait nila and take note! ANG GUGWAPO'T ANG GAGANDA NILA ^_______________^ Promise! I'm very sure that they're popular here. Kasi tumutugtog din sila ng guitar and nagdadrums pa nga daw yung Ian. Ayun nameet ko si Erin na super ganda, sila Jessica, Krisha, Ian, Rey and yung dati nang pinameet sakin na Larry.. Hindi ko nakita ngayon si Marice e.. Oh well.

Ayun sinaman na din namin sila sa mall and tinreat ko silang lahat. Nakakatuwa nga e. Ang saya nilang kasama. Hahaha ang kukulit nila. Sabi nga nila gusto daw nila akong makasama ulit kaya sa Friday gagala daw ulit kami hehe. 

Wala kaming ginawa kundi magtawanan. Tapos grabe magtinginan yung mga tao samin. Siyempre ang gaganda at guwapo ba naman ng mga kasama ko e. Super nag-enjoy talaga akong kasama nila. Atlis may new friends! ^_____^

I'm so happy today! :)

I feel happy kahit na my bad news akong natanggap kanina..