Falling For My Straight Friend

Day 1 (1)

Day 1 of the Vacation

Everybody's attention is on the sunset while settled on the damp sand. Everything is all set-their baggages are in their rooms, the food, the wood piled up for a bonfire later. Me, however, is just looking at the ocean and how the colors scatter with the waves. I stare at the kaleidoscopic colors bursting before it fades. Ugh. It sucks.

All I can think of is how melancholic everything should be right now.

Brows slightly furrowed, eyes looking blankly at something, body somewhat ponderous and, overall, just terrible! I don't even know why I am feeling shitty. It started since we got here- No. It started a few days ago. I've been too moody and my friends notice it, too.

Actually, I was the one who planned this 21 days summer vacation to celebrate our finishing of junior year. So I invited them in our vaca house near this beach (isolated from the city).

"Sam." She calls my attention bewildered. "What's wrong?" Her voice filled with concern. Chloe & I don't talk much. She's not my closest or my bestest friend in the group. But yeah, she's my friend.

She pokes my shoulder. "Look at me."

So I did. I look at her looking at me waiting for an answer, making her boyfriend look at me, also, while his arm hangs on Chloe's shoulder. Why is everyone suddenly so clingy with each other this past few days? It's slightly irritating (A tick I developed just recently).

I shake my head in response so I could look away immediately.

"Get over him already!" She says a bit laughing. "You deserve more than that." She assures me.

Josh? He didn't even cross my mind but maybe he is the reason of my PMS-like attitude recently. I used to talk and cry about him for a whole straight week after he broke up with me. So, I had an epiphany and decided it was ridiculous to make him ruin my life when he's already not in my life. So I just stopped talking about him. But maybe he's still unconciously haunting me (i don't know). Well, our relationship lasted only for a month but Gosh, I loved him for more than three years and he just threw me away like a used tissue. So I guess I deserve to be miserable for a while right?

But I am not up to talking about it and she unknowing to that fact so I just nodded to Chloe. I hate explaining (I might start bursting into tears). She smiled -still worried- then gave his boyfriend a kiss on the cheek before they started to whisper and talk about something I don't care about but it looks like they are happy. Get a room!

There was still a few minutes before total darkness but I wasn't up to anything anymore. It's like the slightest positive mood I was holding on just flew away entirely.

"I'm going in." I announce while standing up. "I'll prepare the table." I didn't wait for a reply from them, I just walked out.

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After dinner, we decided to go out and start the bonfire and start drinking!

I was picking up some wood and throwing it on the fire (to make it bigger) and suddenly a burning small piece of wood decided to jump out and fly straight on my foot.

Have you ever experienced that feeling that is just TOO MUCH-it's inexplainable- and you're left speechless 'cause your brain decided to give up thinking of the right words to say or due to a happening that is too damn quick that your brain couldn't manage to catch up?

I call that moment a "Holy Shit" moment (well mainly, because that's the only thing I can think of and the onlt thing I can say through my dysfunctioning mind during the process).