Hold Me Tight

Things we said today

We had fallen asleep on the sofa together for nearly 2 hours until my Mom gently woke us up, 'hey lovebirds' she whispered as she shook me 'wake up'. I awoke first and John second, his warm breath fanned my face and he gently unwrapped his arms from around my waist then planted a quick kiss on my lips, 'ahh that's better' he yawned and we both sat up slowly.
We took a few minutes to fully wake up but soon enough the reality hit us again, 'You two won't have time for sleeping like that when the baby arrives you know' Mom said firmly making sure that we knew what we were going into, 'yes Mom I do know' I smiled at her sweetly then turned to John and giggled a bit at the face he was pulling. 'You two best make some plans then' Mom continued in her firm voice catching both our eyes after noticing the giggle 'it is serious Jade! You have an unborn child inside of you that deserves some thought and planning. So why don't you two go and have a proper talk about what you need to do, maybe go to Sefton Park or something' she was really serious and slightly cross so John and I just did exactly what she said.
The park was pretty busy because the sun was out and it was quite warm which made it harder for us to find a private spot to have a real talk, so we just sat on a patch of grass as far away from the nearest people as possible.
Once we sat down John looked me in the eye and smiled gently then he held both my hands in his, 'i can't believe it' he said sighing 'I didn't think I would be saying this so soon but...' He paused and knelt down in front of me on one knee 'Jade Terry will you marry me'. I had tears in my eyes that blurred my vision and I managed to flick them away before I said 'John Lennon it would be a pleasure to marry you' we both giggled then indulged in a long passionate kiss and he held me very close to him, not in a million years did I every think I would be marrying John Lennon. We pulled out of the kiss after a few minutes and he began to kiss down my neck gently as my hands rested on his shoulders, 'John I love you' I whispered into his ear as our lips rejoined for a few seconds and we sat facing each other cross legged. There was a few seconds of silence until he said 'future Mrs Lennon eh?' Which made me smile but it also realise that I was 16 and about to marry the father of my baby which seemed a bit intense but I smiled at him anyway and replied 'Jade Lennon, sounds good'. The conversation became more serious from then onwards, 'when are we going to tie the knot then?' John asked me with a smile on his face, 'Why don't we do it later today, just get a few witnesses and a person to do the vows, no fuss or anything' I suggested excitedly and surprisingly John agreed 'you know that's a good idea! A crazy idea, but a good one' then we both smiled widely and I leant in to give him a quick peck on the lips. Just giving him a quick kiss reminded me of how much I love him, 'you know John I'm actually glad that we're keeping this baby and we're going to try and give it a good life' I said twiddling with my hair until John took my hands and held them 'our baby is going to be loved and taken care of no matter what and we need to make that happen baby. So right know lets get married and then get everything sorted' he said as he took my hand and we speed walked to the registry office to be greeted by a rather stern looking lady standing behind a desk, 'how can I help?' She asked in a monotonous tone and pushed her glasses up to take a closer look at us, 'we were just wondering if you have any slots for a quick marriage later today' I politely said with a warm smile which was greeted by a frown of disapproval from the lady, 'and who will be getting married?' She remained monotonous, 'We will be, madame' John said in a posh accent. The lady flicked through a pile of paper work then handed us a form each, 'I'm assuming you are both under 18 which means that you need consent from a parent or guardian who needs to sigh the form below and then you can bring it back at 6 o'clock and you can be married for a small fee of two pounds.' She said as John squeezed my hand and asked 'is there anything else we need?' Equally shocked at the easiness of it all, 'you will need two witnesses and bringing the signed forms is essential for the process. The vows will take about 20 minutes so come in time' she spoke clearly almost patronisingly but we didn't care, we just wanted to get it done and sorted, 'thank you so much' John and I said in unison as we walked out of the door. The forms were pretty straight forward but the most difficult part was getting a signature for Johns because his Aunt would never let him get married just like this and she would freak out if she knew I was pregnant with Johns child. We caught the bus back to my house to get my Mom to sign, which she obliged to because she knew we had to but it was clear she didn't want to attend the wedding because she was still not best pleased that I was pregnant, 'John, have you told your Aunt yet?' Mom asked suspiciously,
'No not yet, it will be a big shock to her' he calmly replied hardly batting an eyelash, 'well make sure you tell her soon and get her to sign this' Mom said firmly handing me back my form and I thanked her sincerely. When we got out onto the path John pulled a pen out of his pocket and gave me a wink, 'Oh John you fraudster' I whispered and gave him a cheeky smile as he forged Mimi's signature carefully, 'I would never have gotten her to agree to this plus the times not right to tell her so a bit of forgery won't hurt' he whispered back, I must be crazy for letting him do it. 'When are you going to tell her?' I enquired as he folded the forms up and slipped them back in his pocket, 'In a few weeks when we have some plans, she's going to go fucking mad at me anyway' he smiled at me in his usual I-don't-care way as we continued walking hand in hand down Forthlin Road until we reached Paul's house who we decided was going to be one of our witnesses. The house brought back memories of the nights that I had stayed either in turmoil or love which made me feel a bit weird but we knocked and went inside anyway. Paul's Dad was sitting in the living room as Paul walked us through to his bedroom, his Dad gave me a look as we did so because he knew about how Paul and I had been together and it was clear that I was now wit John. Paul led us into his room which brought back memories and we all sat on the bed, 'so John what's the matter?' He asked trying to avoid eye contact with me because it probably brought back memories for him too, 'actually we want to ask you a favour' John smiled and held my hand as he said it to be greeted with a confused look from Paul, 'depends what it is'. There was a second of silence and then John continued 'Jade and I are getting married later on today so...' Paul then interrupted 'what? Why?' He exclaimed with wide eyes and looked both John and I in the eye, 'Paul I'm pregnant' I quickly said in one breath instantly regretting it, 'so we've got to get married' I finished and stared right into Paul's big brown eyes which were filled with confusion and shock, 'are you fucking kidding?' He raised his voice and shot a look at me. In that moment it was clear what he was thinking but I couldn't let on that I knew in case it hurt John, 'no Paul, it's true. We are going to be a proper family' John said trying to calm Paul down a bit, 'I get it John. It's just a shock.' Paul said as he brushed his hand through his hair, 'it's a shock to us too but marriage is the only option right now' I sighed.
Being in Paul's room made me think what if... What if the baby is Paul's after the night we spent together which means that I would be marrying the wrong person but I'm marrying the one I love, all I can do is hope that it is John's.