Kiss Me: Chapter 1: Goodbye.
*Jazmin's P.O.V*
"Kiss me." he whispered softly into my ear.
"Why? What have you given me to deserve my kiss?" I whispered back, but harshly. "I don't need to kiss you for no reason, I want you to love me."
Louis sighed, rolled onto his back off of the bed and put his bathrobe on. "Babe, I know you have been hurt in the past, but you have to give me a chance. Trust me, please?"
"Lou, you know I have trust issues. Don't put me on the spot like that. I can't just trust you like that. I have a broken past the last thing I need is a broken future, too."
"Okay, maybe you're not ready. I'm sorry but I just can't do this anymore. You always tell me that you'll change in time. Well, how much more time do you need? Why don't you call me when you've changed." he said, walking towards the door and grabbing for his coat.
"Weren't you the one who told me you would help me through this? That you would hold me tight through the night when I needed it, that I was worth so much? That I could cry on your shoulder whenever? And you're just letting me go like this?! See, THIS is why I can't trust anybody. This is why I need time, Lou. You don't get it either, no one does. You really don't understand at all!" I could feel all the emotions bubbling up and coming out all at once, but I needed to hold them in. I didn't want to break down at that moment. "So just leave now, just go. Abandon me like everybody else did, and will."
"You're at it again, "Me, me, me." I'm sick of it Jaz, there's a reason why a relationship consists of two individals, you can't just focus everything on one person the way you do. You always make it sound like I'm the bad person here, like I'm the one who's wrong all the time. And sometimes I start to believe that even though I know for a fact that it's not my fault. I'm not saying it's all your fault but we really aren't working and you're not helping this situation at all. I'm sorry, Jaz. I really did love you and wanted to help you, but not anymore. You've taken this much too far. Goodbye."
"See?? This is the problem. This is what you told me you wouldn't do. You did it anyway." I screamed, crying now.
"Everything happens for a reason" He whispered reaching for the door. "I'm sorry, Jaz. Goodbye." He kissed me one last time on the cheek, through my tears and all. He opened the door, and just like that, walked out on me.
It took me hours to process it but at 3:08 a.m after a couple glasses of red wine, it all sunk in: Louis was gone. Gone as in G-O-N-E. Not returning. And with that new piece of information in my mind, I left too. I didn't know where I was going or what I was going to do, but I knew I had to get away. The way I did with most of my problems, running away from them
Goodbye.
