For Lola

Part 8

Dear Lola

I did it. I finaly escaped the crazy house. That sounds crazy too, doesn't it? I'm writing you now (15 february 2004) from an old loft Suri and I found on our way to her ex-boyfriends house. She asked me to do something. Something so terrifying and so wrong that I even doubt my own instincts. I'm not sure if I should do it. There are so many risks involved... Yesterday when we ran out of the hospital I finally felt relieved but I still feel caged in this world. Where in the name of God is Charles. And will I ever be able to find him back. Questions unanswered and that really scares me Lola. Everything scares me. Death scares me. Doesn't it scare you? Suri dragged me into a bar offering me a few drinks. Probably to loosen up for a bit. And then she told me what she wanted in return. The way to the loft was in complete silence, because I couldn't bring out a word. All the things I've been through and she asks me to do something so stupid. But I can't say no now, can I? She helped me escape, so she could easily return me and declare me as insane. And now I'm here, up in the middle of the night doubting if I should escape or if I should help her. I don't get why she doesn't just breaks up with him. Bit she talked about the things he's done with her. Hitting and slamming things in her face and that's not right either. But should I punish him for that? I'm not sure but until I write back wish me the best of luck out here. It's dangerous.

Love. - M.S.