IGOT: Time (JB)

"...It's okay..."

Come to think of it I've never told anyone about my true thoughts before... I don't know why I told her.

As promise I went back to the hospital but when I went Woori wasn't there so I asked the nurse where she was and they said that she had an appointment with the doctor. Having other schedules I decided to leave first and come back later. But as I was about to leave I see Woori coming back this way but I see that's she's in a wheelchair. I walked over to her,

"Woori, what happen? Why are you in a wheelchair?" I asked her, I wheel her out to the garden area so that we could talk.

"You kept your promise" she said smiling at me.

"What happen to you? You were fine the other day"

"The doctors said that it was the effect of the drugs. My muscles are too weak for me to walk so I use a wheelchair to get around now. Why are you looking at me like that? I can endure it, I am receiving physiotherapy and will slowly gain back my strength." She continues to explain still keeping optimistic.

"Uh are you okay? Emotionally are you okay? I'm just worry about you that's all" I said her

"Well there's nothing else that I can do and I trust the doctors. They also said this is my last stretch of chemotherapy so it's good. Oh, you worry about me?" she said with a smirk on her face. "Oh have you listen to MP3 that I gave you at the fan signing?" she said.

"..errmm.. no? not yet BUT I will I promise" I replied feeling slightly guilty.

"You haven't listen to it yet?! Woah, if you knew how long I searched to find the perfect song." She said.

We couldn't continue talking for a long time, that i lost track of time but because of the schedule I had to leave. For some reason I feel odd by just leaving her like that, I don't really know why. Ever since our promotions had officially ended I had more free time to do things, I found myself visiting the hospital more and more. Now that I think about it, it has become more. I think my head is also making excuses to justify my visits but my heart truly knows that's not the reason.

[A WEEK LATER]

On a Sunday it was our resting day and without the members and my manager knowing I went to the hospital. I walked up to the patient's floor like last time but I could sense an odd atmosphere around here that I haven't felt before. I talked to the nurse for a bit before entering the room. The atmosphere there was heavy, I looked around the room and I couldn't see Woori. Before asking where she was I thought I should asked Sunghee and Kaeun why the atmosphere was like this today.

"Why is everyone like this today? Where is everybody?" I asked as I walk over to them, they both were sitting next to the window.

They let out a deep sigh before speaking "I honestly don't know how to say this exactly... Hae...Haeseul was your biggest fan you know" Sunghee said

"Uh, I know that's why I'm here. Why are you telling me this?" I replied

"She passed away last night" Kaeun said.

"Haeseul-ii?" if only I knew, what was I talking about I should have known. It explains why Haeseul was missing most of the time I visit the hospital. There was a long pause.

"Do want to know who is having the hardest time out of all of us?" Kaeun said

"Woori, Haeseul was like a sister to her. They were practically sisters, Haeseul already lost her actual older sister and Woori lost her parents in and car accident. When her aunt was given the legal rights her aunt decided to put her into an orphanage instead." Sunghee said. I...I didn't know what to say, I was lost for words. I question whether or not if it was my place to even say anything.

Sunghee continues "I don't know what's going on in Woori-unni head right now...she's properly not in the right state of mind right now right?".

"Do you know where she is?" I asked

"She said that the was going out to get some fresh air and time to think" Kaeun said

I went over to the hospital garden, thinking that she might have gone there. She shouldn't be left alone at a time like this. I looked every single part of the garden and she was nowhere to be found. Then I thought that there could the possibility of her sneaking out of the hospital again.

I start to make my way down toward the entrance; I was only on the third floor so I decided it would be quicker to take the stairs. I enter the stairway and began to make walk down. However I hear a noise coming from somebody on a couple of stairs from where I was standing. I realise that it could be Woori so I went up to check.

As I approach closer I can some how sense that it was Woori already. She had her head down on her knees; I wasn't sure how I should approach her but before I could say anything Woori noticed my present and looked up. I see her eyes are all red and puffed up I couldn't say anything, I didn't want to say anything. I figure instead of words of comforts she just somebody by her side. I crouch down and sat next to her on the stairs and slowly wrap my arm over her shoulder. As I did that she began crying again, I pull her closer to my embrace.

"It's okay... you don't have to say anything. But just so that you don't have act strong in front of me" I spoke softly to her while carrying on holding her.