A Love Like Ours

Lust Or Love

As he made love to me all I could do is think, my mind was wondering between every deep stroke he took, every kiss he planted, every word he spoke. I loved him with everything in me, but my question was does he love me. Am I dumb for falling for a thug, cause my friends say " Girl he ain't shit find yourself a real man.", but it's all so real to me too real to me, the love we make, the words he says, the things we go through, all of that I don't know what else to do. This boy has me wide open.

My thoughts were interrupted by his deep long stroke filling up my whole stomach, HE SAID "WHAT'S MY FUCKING NAME TIFFANY"

"DADDY, YESSS, DADDY, KEEP ON, AH, BAE I THINK IM FINNA, AHHHHHHHHHH"

" DID I TELL YO ASS TO CUM YET, NOW TURN THAT ASS OVER"

I got onto all four and he pushed my back in, he made my arch so deep that my stomach was on the bed, he placed himself at my enter, and started to rub his dick against me, I was getting wetter and wetter all he doing is teasing, then finally he eased himself in me and started going ham.

"BABY KEEP GOING DON'T STOP YESS, I LOVE THIS DICK, UHHHHHH DADDDYYYY"

"UGHHH DAMN GIRL THROW THAT ASS BACK AT ME.......FUCKKKKKKK MANNNNNNN WHAT YOU DOING TO ME GIRL, SHITTTTTT YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU"

Did he just say what I think he said? He said he loved me, I stopped what I was doing, sat up and turned around to look at him. He couldn't even look me in my eye, he had never said he loved me before... EVER. So I wouldn't know if he were for real or not, all I can do is hope so.

*Jaquan*

"UGHHH DAMN GIRL THROW THAT ASS BACK AT ME.......FUCKKKKKKK MANNNNNNN WHAT YOU DOING TO ME GIRL, SHITTTTTT YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU"

After that shit slipped out my mouth, I was even shocked, I mean I do love her, but I'm a thug... and the life I live ain't safe for her. I'd rather have her think a nigga heartless than to fall for me. Ion want her to fall in love with me, yeah we share words, and it even gets deep. I told her about my moms and pops, and all that, but I'm not ready. I wanna be with her, but I can't I'd rather her be with someone else rather than me.

"What did you just say?" she questioned.

"Tiffany I ain't mean that dumb ass shit man, we was just fucking... I mean yeah I care for you, but love is a strong ass word, I care ma but ion love yo ass," I simply stated lying through my teeth.

"But why w-would y-you say some-something y-you don't mean" she started to cry. Seeing her like this broke me down on the inside, not only was I hurting her but I was hurting myself trying to keep this lie going.

"Man Tiffany stop that baby ass crying shit, I said I fucking care what else you want me to say, ian mean it yo pussy was just feeling good wrapped around my dick, ion love you but I do love yo pussy" I lied again which wasn't really a lie cause her pussy is good.

"So everything we shared and said to each other didn't mean a damn thing to you?" She asked.

"Yes but..."

"AINT NO FUCKING BUT JAQUAN TYRESE MAYLAND" she yelled.

"AYE MAN WATCH THAT GOVERNMENT NAME SHIT" I told her.

"You know what fuck you and fuck this ion have shit else to say to you, my friends were right you were a waste of time, but I'm not mad at you, I'm mad at myself for loving you" she started to put her clothes on and grabbed her stuff. She started to walk towards the door with tears flowing down her face.

I grabbed her arm, "Let me the fuck go it, ain't shit you can say nor do that will change what was said or done in that room, and it ain't nothing I can do to get my virginity back from you Quan. You are a fucking joke to me, you have too much pride to ever love, and from this day forward Ion have shit to say to you... bye" she started to walk away but before she could she took some papers out her purse, "oh yeah here you go", she threw the papers at me and with that she left.

I walked back in the house and sat on my couch, I opened up the papers and my mouth dropped "Oh my fucking God I just hurt the love of my life and the mother of my first child," I said out loud.
I tried to call her but there was no answer.

DAMN MAN WHAT THE FUCK DID I JUST DO??

I called my boy Trey up " Wassup nigga?"

"Man boy I just fucked up."

"What yo dumb ass done did now."

" Man I fucked around and told Tiffany I love her -"

"But you do nigga"

"But Ian never tell her that listen, we was fucking and I said I loved her, she looked at me and I couldn't even look her in the eyes, I felt so guilty and so lost she was looking at me like all her love was in this, and I couldn't afford to hurt her so I told her ass Ion love her I said I care but ion love her, then she started yelling at me, and before she got in her car she threw some papers at me, Trey she pregnant."

"Man you need to talk to her."

"I tried she ain't answer."

"Yeen tried hard enough."

"I'm a thug man she'll come around."

"And what makes you think that?"

"Cause we love each other."

"But she don't know that, you just said you don't love her. A thug can be a thug with a piece missing, and Tiffany she is your piece missing. A real thug needs a queen, a real thug needs a rider, a real thug needs someone that will take time and be patient with them. And Tiffany she is here for you, man you better go make shit right with her before it's too late."

"It's already too late."

"No it's not you just opened some hurtful wombs just go talk to her."

"Iight Nigga one love," with that we hung up he was right, I had to get my baby back.