Breaking

Pronulog

Harry's P.O.V

I'm sat down in the studios all alone like always.

Since Louis got a girlfriend everyone has been with them but when Louis started dating he would call me names and they hurt alot, everyone don't even actonolage me, yeh they might say something in interviews but thats it, i sometimes i think whats the point being in the boy band when they are not going to talk to you and my little secert i've been selfharming also feeling down alot i've been at doctors and they said i have depression and what can i do about it nobody cares.

At the moment i end rushing to the bathrooms being sick i been feeling like this for a couple of days.

When i walk back in i see Louis sat down, when he heard the door open he looked at me for the first time in a couple of weeks or mouths i don't know.

I sat down ignoring Louis, playing on my phone "Harry" Louis' voice spoke up and to be honest i'm shock.

I look up to meet his eyes waiting for him to say something but when he did i bulid up tears.

"Harry, i'm gonna be a dad" just like that i'm crying, Louis tried resting his hand on my shoulder but i told him "don't touch me!" then run out of the room and down the bathrooms were i've just been.

Once i got there i locked the door sat down agasint the wall pouring my heart out.

Why has he done this to me? What have i done to deserve this.? After i calmed down; i stud up walking over to the sink looking at myself in the mirror thinking how worthless i am.

I wash my face before unlocking the door and stepping out letting the door close itself.

I saw everyone in the room through the glass window with Briana Louis girlfriend Louis is dating and she sends me a dirty look and they all are smiling at the girl and Louis now had his arm around her waist.

You see, me and Briana don't get along we hate each others guts but i hate her more than she does.

Since were not doing no recording insead were admiring and congratulateing, i descied to go home without the boys, i live on my own i use to live with Louis but we don't now instead Briana moved in with him.

Liam's girlfriend Sophia she's my friend and i haven't told her my depression she might laugh but i don't won't anyone to find out and it's staying that way.

Once i got to my car, started driving i thought about Louis being a dad and that shattered my heart thinking of it.

Once i got home, before taking my shoes and coat of.

I walk to the bathroom pulling out my razor and started cutting.

After i finished with a few cuts over feeling alittle dizzy so i lay on my bed getting bed but before talking my clothes of but changing into a clean top and putting the bloody one in washer and went to bed.

I wrap the covers around me tighter and getting confy but my phone vibrated and the bedside table i groaned but look to see a text from paul at my iphone 6 plus on the front screen say 'were are you, you know you can't just leave like that' i scoffed at that but reach for it but whiced as i do so.

I pick up my phone texting back 'went home not feeling too good' then put my phone down and putting it on silence.

And turn to my other side wincing at the same time but when i manage to turn i close my eyes for sleep but nothing and i just wanted to go to sleep and it's only 3 in the morning.

I tried but end up sobbing out and cried myself to sleep.

When i manage to fall asleep i have a nightmare of Louis' hateful words and it actually happen.

Harry's dream

"Why are you even crying for big baby" Louis screamed at me.

"Why are you doing this Lou?" My voice breaking.

"Don't call me Lou you freak why can't you just listen to me and accept my girlfriend and leave us alone" his voice going down.

I do leave them alone he just comes to me and aruges why can't we just get along.

"You know what fuck you" he shouted then walked away from me out of the living room and going out not before slamming the door making me jump then i couldn't do this.

I rushed to the bathroom, and grabbed what i wanted and i cut.

End of dream