There was a time in my life when I wanted to be a call girl. I was twelve at the time and my horomones made me feel hornier than the average boy aged about fourteen years. I tried to have values but it was hard to stick to them, so I just didn't. I had my first boyfriend when I was in the fourth grade and my first kiss in the fifth grade. In the sixth grade, I moved on to french kissing then on to hand jobs by grade seven. By the time I was in the eigth grade, I was giving blow jobs despite hating doing so. Freshman year was relaxing. I only had one boyfriend that year and only ever made out with him.
Come sophomore year, I began dating this guy named Zach. He was only a few months away from age eigthteen but I was okay with it. He was a really cool guy and he made me happy just being around him. We dated about two weeks and managed to get by on just spooning and making out- which was perfectly fine. Then one night we went a bit too far. We moved on from just making out to him fingering me and me attempting to give him a hand.
However, it was difficult to be so sexual with him. I actually liked him and didn't want to mess things up. I was probably the most awkward girl that he'd ever been with. That night, I actually started to have real feelings for him. I didn't love him per se, put I loved being around him and the fact that he didn't ask for a blow job. Anyways, he broke up with me the next day and I was devistated.
Because I was so devistated, I hooked up with one of my guy friends and gave him a blow job in the back of my car. He wanted to have sex, but that was the one thing that I would not do. He had a girlfriend at the time which made me a mistress in the teenage world. They didn't work out and neither did Tony and me.
I met a guy named Kody around Halloween time and began dating him. He was a freshman and the furthest that he had ever gone was normal kissing. His lack of experience caused me to push the both of us further than ever before. I gave him a blow job and had sex with him. Things did not really work out with him either.
After breaking up with Kody, I took some time to think about my true orientation.
