Random Thoughts of a Teenage Girl

Moo

Heh
First day of school today: ON A FUCKING FRIDAY THAT MAKES NO FUCKING SENSE

But yeh always been like this

I go to a small school. In a small country town. And then set up everything so ducking weird?!

First period; Art.
Never had that before.

Second period; Science.
Eh my teacher is pretty funny
I had to save a gummy worm named Sam from the ocean (desk) and his boat (a cup) was flipped upside down and his life raft (a gummy life saver) was away from him and Skye and I were a group (pfft horrible idea) and I'm pretty sure we didn't get him to his raft like everyone else because we were laughing to hard.
See, you can't use your hand. You can only use one hand each person. And you use a paper clip to stick a FUCKING GUMMY WORM IN A LIFE SAVER.
?! We learned life skills.
Well.. I made a story for poor ol' Sammy.
He was in the ocean because he was going to Alabama to meet his wormy family and he was going the wrong way, and because of that his boat flipped over
He started drowning over 5 times ...
Then
Then yeah he has identity crisis now because of that terrible incident aaaand he changed his name to Henry THE END

Third period; Social Studies

Everything else is boring including that last subject 😞

I have a different lunch period than Gary and it makes me feel bad and wanna cry because then I can only see him in the halls 😣

And they added the sixth grade in the high school and there's barely room for the seventh and such in the first place so FUCK THAT SHIT they should just shove both those classes back in the Elementary school lololol the halls are so crowded it makes me so claustrophobic so pretty much I'm breathing really heavily until everyone is settled down in their classrooms

I got to hug Gary today though
That was fun :3
And
My heart was beating 10,000 miles a minute for like 30min after that
So I was sitting in class and pretty sure everybody could hear my heartbeat lololol idgaf

I'm so confused right now

I was playing You Found Me on the piano and then started crying
Then was playing Never Say Never (The Fray) on the piano (their songs are so fun to play :3) and started crying again
Like what the fuck?

I was just thinking of Gary and how FUCKED UP OUR LIVES ARE NOW 😰
I just wanna hug him forever 😰😰
And I can't 😫😫😫

What's awesome is that he leaves little notes in my locker :3

And today he left a note wrapped around gum that I had and I was really hyper after it like WHAT THE FUCK again because GUM makes me HYPER does it ACTUALLY DO that?!
Idk.
Idek.
Idekam.

Fuck all of youuuuu (not really) I just wanna lay here and cry and eh fuck I can't handle seeing him and not being able to do anything it's not okay
It's not okay.
I'm not okay.

WHY
ARE
YOU
EVILLLL

WHY

IS

LIFE

EVIL
?!

Off With Her Head; Ghost Town:::

A dangerous upspring reflected on you,
Has the kids telling fairy tales based off your lie.
The remorse of a princess who's mocked by her father.
A revolt to her majesty she bows out for life.
Your highness, your highness how low will you go?
Do you dare say it to the cities of the world?
He may doubt the truth of it, but nothing excuses it.
When a man's pride is injured a drink or two is due.

I know it seems like it's impossible, just to stop it all.
And if you think I'm a mistake, just break it off.

Yeah, this downward spiral's going viral,
In the coliseum people screamin', "Off with her head!"
I've never been so loyal, nor have I bowed so deeply.
Locked in this pillory, I'm paralyzed.
Is this a reflection of humanity?
No this mustn't be the end. No this mustn't be the end!

I know it seems like it's impossible, just to stop it all.
And if you think I'm a mistake, just break it off.

My entire life you were walkin' out.
1,000 times now I've lost count.
This bitter taste you've left me with.
My blood on your hands is your final gift.

And if you think I'm a mistake, just break it off. [2x]

A dangerous upspring reflected on you,
Has the kids telling fairy tales based off your lie..
The remorse of a princess who's mocked by her father.
A revolt to her majesty, she bows out for life...

I know it seems like it's impossible, just to stop it all.
And if you think I'm a mistake, just break it off.

Mkay am I crying because of anxiety oorrrrr???
I don't know.