ALL YOU CAN EAT...

CHAPTER 29

~Amina~
(I sit here beside Sye's bed. how can I care about a person that I hated for years for trying to play me. It makes no sense in my head I'm going crazy thinking about it. They way she sacrificed herself for me and they way she said I love you. What am I supposed to do with myself after someone says something like that. I just wish she would wake up so we can talk cause I can't take this shit anymore I just wonder if she meant she loved me like a friend because I was going to save her or like does she you know love me love me. I look at her she's battered and bruised but she's still strong as ever. I know she's been hurt physically and emotionally but how in the world does someone manage that much strength to save a person they barely even know. Her eyes her lips and her glowing brown skin I just want to hold her and tell her nothing's ever going to happen to her again. Then again I'm supposed to hate her guts but I think I may be still attracted to her. But still she did try to play me too so she probably isn't worth it just like Najah and Jasmine. Too be honest I'm so glad them bitches are dead cause had they not been I swear they still would be anyway and I'd be in jail. Please Sye just wake up...)
~Sye~
(It's like I can feel myself laying in the hospital bed I just can't wake up. So many thoughts are swirling through my head like I wonder if she heard me when I said I loved her. Maybe just maybe she did and she feels the same way but I doubt it because she knew back in the day I was going to play her too. I wasn't worth shit back then I'm still not. I wish I would've just died then this mess would've been over and done with. Why does God want me to live anyways. I have no one my family hates me I have no friends and I'm basically alone in this world. Who wants to live a life like that were people just walk by you and assume you're okay because you keep a smile on your face to hide the pain. This ain't life this is hell on earth and I don't want to live it anymore, It hurts I just wan the pain to stop that's all I'm asking for please God just take me away... Take me away.)
***Five Hours Later***
~Amina~
(It was about six o'clock in the evening. I had gone to get me something to eat and to get some air and clear my head.  Of course I was still dazed about what happened and it happened three weeks ago I wish these damn thoughts would go away. just fucking get out my head already and stop replaying it over and over again. I sipped on my coffee as I made my way back into her room same somber face no movement and a look of weariness appeared on her face. Her eyes gently fluttered open as she looked at the ceiling a look of disappointment crossed her face as if to say no I do not want to be here. But why? I guess she's tired of all the pain and drama. There won't be anymore of that though. I gently called out to her as she turned her head towards me.)
Amina:Sye?
Sye:*Turns her head.* Amina? What are you doing here?
Amina:What do you mean what am I doing here? You saved me. The least I could do was be here when you woke up.
Sye:You didn't have to, but thank you.
Amina:Don't thank me. How are you feeling?
Sye:I feel okay. How are you?
Amina:I'm completely fine. *Adjusts her pillow.*
Sye:How long have I been out of it?
Amina:Three weeks. Happy belated birthday.
Sye:Thanks.. I guess I'm officially twenty six now.
Amina:Yes. You're old. *Laughs lightly.*
Sye:*Chuckles.* I feel old too.
Amina:But you still look great.
Sye:Thank you so do you.
Amina:So let's not beat around the bush. Why did you say you loved me when you knew I hated you?
Sye:Well umm I've always liked you since college.
Amina:Yes but you were a player so you knew I'd never ever like you like that. I only kissed you that day because I wanted to get back at Najah.
Sye:I know but I felt something different. I'm sorry but I fell for you.
Amina:Hmm... Do you still play females?
Sye:No I haven't spoken to a female since before I graduated college.
Amina:*Shocked.* Why?
Sye:Because I couldn't get over you and no woman would ever compare to you.
Amina:That's sweet.. but I don't think we could ever be together.
Sye:I know.
Amina:I'm sorry but I can be your friend if you like.
Sye:I guess I'd like that a lot.
Amina:Good. Now you get some more rest I'll go get the doctor.
Sye:Alright thank you.
Amina:No problem.
***Six Months Later***
~Sye~
(Well six months have gone by and I'm fully heeled and doing what I do best my art and things of that nature. Me and Amina still remain friends and she's find a little boo thing. A guy actually. His name is Keenan and they are absolutely perfect for each other her face lights up every time she see's him. If she's happy I guess I'm happy also. I still haven't found anyone and I don't think I will but that's okay because some people are meant to stay single and just make everyone happy with there talent and abilities. I have one regret though. Trying to be a player. Maybe if I never did that I might've actually had a shot with her but life is full of lessons and I learned a big one. I'm happy and content for now we'll see what the future brings. Hopefully more happiness.)
~Amina~
(I'm too happy with life at the moment. I'm still a physical therapist  and a part time veterinarian and I think I've actually found a great guy. He's the best and he treats me like a queen at all times and he's loyal. He shows me off and that just makes me feel amazing. I couldn't ask for anything better. Right now I'm actually on a date with him with his parents. They love me so much. Their names are Judith and Marcus. They are very nice and I appreciate the kid words they always say to me. )
Judith:So when do you two plan on tying the knot?
Amina:*Smiles.* That's a little too soon to talk about but maybe someday in the future.
Marcus:He's got to be the dumbest thing if he ever was to let you go.
Keenan:Dad!
Marcus:I'm just saying.
Judith:*Giggles.* Boys behave.
Amina:They're just alike.
Judith:Tell me about it.
Amina:*Laughs.*