Because of you (a Benedict Cumberbatch FanFic)

Could I?

// last time//
"Miss we're here" "oh okay thank you" I gave the driver my money and took my key out of my luggage. I was so nervous, I loved him, but I also really liked Ben, I might even like him more. But how is that possible? I've known Ben for like a couple of weeks, and i've been dating J for so long. But when i'm with Ben I feel like nothing matters, his smile can take my breath away, and that's what love is supposed to be right? Maybe it's for the best that J is going to break up with me. Because I know now that I am sure I am in love with Benedict. I opened the door and I walk into the living room, I saw Jason and he looked nervous. "Dana, that thing on the airport, I've been thinking about that"
"yeah me too"
"I was really angry and I didn't want to see you anymore"
"I know, you made that clear"
"this time alone made me realise that this might not be what I want"
"Me, too. Oh J. you don't know how happy I am we feel the same way about this."
"That's why I want to marry you"
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//dana's Pov//
I did not expect this. I did not expect this at all. He wanted to marry me? Now? How can he do that to me. I mean I love him, but I also love Ben. I think. I don't know. Do I? Does he love me? Jason does. Should I say yes?
" I, oh god, J I am a little overwhelmed"
" just think about it, you don't have to decide yet. I love you and I'll give you all the time you need. Okay?"  He gave me a kiss on my head and he left the room. I could tell he wasn't expecting me to not say yes. But I did not see his question coming.. Maybe I should go and stay with Catherine. Ah Catherine, she's my sister.
We've always been close, and have loads of fun. She's my inspiration, she's just so smart and so nice for everyone. I wish I was more like her. I should call her. I picked up the phone and  looked through my contacts. Ah there she is.
"Omg D HOWS LIFE GOING?"
"Hey Cat, good, I have to tell you something. I don't want to tell you this over the phone, so could I come over and maybe stay with you for a while?"
"Did someone die?"
"No nothing like that." 
" oh okay cool, yeah sure. We can order Pizza and watch some movies."
"Yes that would be perfect but NO Urban Legends okay?"
" what why not? JARED FREAKING LETO IS IN IT."
"Don't care we're not watching that movie."
"Okay okay, but we're not watching The Phantom of the opera either."
"Wow, hey, there is NOTHING WRONG with that movie."
"Yes there is... It's boring."
"WHAT GERARD BUTLER IS IN IT AND HE SINGS AND IS PERFECT AND WHY IS IT BORING IT IS ABOUT TRUE LOVE."
"Don't care we're not watching THAT movie."
"Okay okay touché"
"so, Jared Leto?"
"Only if Gerard Butler"
"Deal."
"Deal."
"See you tonight?"
"Yup okay love you!"
"Love you too."
Thank god she agreed I couldn't stay here with Jason. I needed some Gerry to take me away with the music of the night. I love the phantom of the opera so much, I always cry my eyes out.
"Dana, who was that on the phone?"
" that was Cathrine, I'm going to stay with her for a day or so."
"Oh, okay well, I would like you to tell me that before you plan those things..."
"Sorry"
"Yeah sure, but asking you to marry me did not scare you or something?"
"No, well maybe, I don't know"
"If you're not ready for it that's okay, just tell me but don't leave me, because I would not survive that."
"Jason I love you, I would never leave you"
While I said that I believed it. I do love him. I could never leave him. Or could I?