Move On

One

"It's just, I-I saw them" I sobbed through the phone.

"I told you many times, HE'S A FUCKING JERK! he just plays around with your heart like it's a toy or something" Sarah, my cousin and best friend, angrily said.

"B-ut I"

"Becky, you need to move on and find someone new" she sighed.

"You don't un-"

"Becky! Listen! You're right I don't understand what your going through, but I do know what's right and what's wrong, and I know a fuckboy when I see one, let's get real here, you know he's a heartless jerk and likes to play around with others that do have one, like you Rebbeca!"

"I lo-"

"How many times has he cheated on you?"

"Many times bu-"

"How many times has he humiliated you in front of people?"

"A lot" I answered lowly.

"How many fucking times have you cried and reached me to console your broken heart?" She paused. "again, MANY FUCKING TIMES BECK! he doesn't deserve all your suffering, he doesn't deserve your tears, he doesn't deserve YOU! you're an amazing person, anyone would die to have you in their arms, to have your trust to have you right next to them! Listen Becky, if you keep on drowning in your tears, your going to go no where, it won't fix any of this! Understand?!" She sighed once again. "I just want you to know that he doesn't deserve you, goodnight"

Before I could tell her something she hung up, I broke down again.

I bet she's tired of my shit, I wouldn't blame her any way...

I put my phone down and cried into my bed sheets. I should move on. Sarah's right.

Just then my phone buzzed. I ignored it and kept on crying.

"Why does this have to happen to me?" I said shoving my face onto the pillow. I kept on seeing Austin and that slut together again and again in my head which only made it worse, I cried even harder into my pillow and let out a scream.

I'm tired of this.

After a few more hours I kept on crying my eyes out like every single damn time Austin has let me down. I sat up and calmed down a bit.

I started having flashbacks of all those times, when he cheated on me specifically. I never realized when I told RahRah many I ment like 16 times getting JUST cheated on and all with different chicks.

The tears started falling down again one by the other. I lied down and cried myself to sleep at threeish pm. I just want to disappear already.

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BrrBrrBrr!

I slowly opened my eyes and turned off my alarm. I let out a big sigh and stood up from my bed I stayed there sitting and staring at the wall not thinking about anything for a good 5 minutes.

I then walked to my bathroom and washed my hands, I looked at the mirror and saw that I had red puffy eyes because of yesterday I then started thinking about how Austin cheated on me and Rah's words. Then I remembered that my phone buzzed yesterday.

I went to unplug my phone and saw that it was from Austin. A tear slipped as I read it.

Babe❤: I'm really sorry princess. I didn't mean to hurt you like that, forgive me? I miss you. I love you Becky. Please call me or text me back. I'm truly sorry. I hope you do give me another chance.