Best nightmare~Luke punk AU

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luke's pov-

i laid in my bed thinking of what to do. my head was a mess and i missed her.

i never thought i would miss somebody, but i missed her.

 a lot.

i left cuz i messed up. she didn't need me messing things up. 

i didn't break up with her because i honestly couldn't i din't think i would ever actually love somebody, and also because i hoped that one day i'd come back.

 i told her i loved her and i was telling the truth, but she didn't need me coming in her life and doing more damage than i'd done.

i'd hoped since they all graduated, that i could come back so maybe i wouldn't have to see him.

he hadn't been to school after we got and our fight and he was still in the hospital when i left which was almost 3 weeks later.

i felt bad cause i lied to rose and now she thought that he was just mad at  her. 

i almost beat the kid half to death and i had the girl that i loved thinking she'd done something wrong.

it was selfish but i just couldn't lose her.

i was just hoping i could see her soon because i'd never felt worse in my life than i had the past 3 months.

rosie's pov-

i went to the one place where my best friend was. he wasn't here technically and we didn't get along the last couple of months that he was here and i feel so terrible for that, but he was always there and i knew he would be now.

i missed him and every day i woke up, i felt  like his suicide was from me. i felt that it was my fault he died.

he was amazing and i wish i could've been there during his last few months. i missed him so much.

i knew he would always listen so i sat down at his gravestone and leaned on it.

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so this is kinda short but i ran out of ideas and i wanted a cliff hanger BUT in the next chapter i tell you guys who died and it breaks my heart that i took him out but tbh i just didn't know where i was gonna go with him character.

but i will try very hard to update tomorrow and the next chapter will probably just be her venting to the person who i can't name yet, but i have some goo ideas for the future which i'm happy because tonight when i got on here i came on here to tell you guys that i'd be discontinuing the story but i wanted to write a few more chapters and see how it went but discontinue the story is still in the air, but i haven't really decided what i'm gonna do yet.

BUT ANYWAYS I LOVE YOU GUYS AND HAVE A GOOD NIGHT/DAY !!