"Teen heartthrob Justin Bieber left his beliebers in the dust for 3 years and comes back.. as someone else?" Gulianna on E! News says as the headline for the next topic. It was all over Twitter and Instagram but I couldn't believe anything. I am a huge belieber, (possibly could be more but he's figuring out his career before a relationship) of Justin's and I've supported him for so long and of course I was ok with him taking a break for a few years and I was beyond excited for his come back, but as someone else? I really didn't get it. and he wasn't answering my calls.
"Jason Mccan? I'm so lost and confused. please be a rumor." I captioned an Instagram picture of an article on Justin's comeback as "Jason Mccan" I shut off E! News and scrolled through Twitter hoping to find a confirmation that it's a rumor or not. Justin was doing a live stream tonight at 10 pm and I was hoping he would clear things up.
"ARE YOU KIDDING ME!?" My best friend Bea said bursting through my room. it wasn't unexpected for her to do that I've known her my whole life.
"if you're talking about Justin .. or Jason.... I know." I said with a sigh.
"Kaytin! No I'm not talking about Justin.. it's Ashley. you didn't see her tweet about you??"
"what? no? I've been trying to figure out what the hell is going on with Justin!"
"well," Bea started "Ashley tweeted saying how dare you be such a skank and go on a few "dates" with Justin while you had Nate here, your boyfriend and she continued to say things like you have STDs and you should kill yours-"
I cut my stare off from bea and looked down at my phone that starting ringing. it was scooter. why would he be calling me? I could only think of one reason, maybe I couldn't be seen with Justin anymore or something?
I slid the button to the right to pick up the call "hello?" I greeted.
"kaytin, I'm so sorry I couldn't do anything I wasn't at his house I- I just- I just left-" Scooters voice was cracking. "scooter? what?? what happened?" I started worrying, did Justin run off again?
"I just left - to go run some errands and - and I was only gone for an hour! I came back and he - Justin he was knocked out cold on the bed. I just called 911 they are here right - right now I-"
"SCOOTER WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON!?" I started to sob, I never knew he was capable of this. Bea stood up with a confused look on her face.
"Justin overdosed on pills- kaytin I'm so - so sorry. as much as I don't want it to be I think it was on purpose." scooter was crying and his voice cracked after every word it was hard to understand, but I understood clearly.
I dropped the phone, and scooter hung up. I stopped crying, I stopped shaking, I stopped blinking, I stopped breathing.
at that moment I stopped living.
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I hope you understand kaytin, I really do. you have helped me through such hard times, you've been my rock, my supporter, a best friend, and the love of my life. it's so hard leaving you. I know if probably doesn't seem that way but it is. this decision wasn't an easy one, but it's what I want. one day when it's your turn we will meet again and be together forever but until then I want you to know that I love you and I always will. I've been such a dick. I should have been more to you. this is the hardest fucking thing I have ever done. just know it is ok to love someone else, kay. and I will always be looking over you as your angel. this isn't goodbye because I will see you when it's time. make sure my beliebers know it wasn't them that caused this and I love them with all my heart. make sure they are okay, make sure they don't end their life just because of me, remind them they are strong and just because I'm gone doesn't mean I'm not their angel. remind them they are my everything and I love them so so fucking much. they are ok without me and so are you. I love you.
I Love You - Justin
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A/N : yikes ok hello I'm Mads ( @ rauhlwme on Twitter and @ bitchrauhl on Instagram) this isn't my first fan fic but it's my first fan fic on this account. this was an intro and a slip into the future and the first chapter will start before Kaytin and Justin meet. so this was like a look at the ending kinda .. (: sorry if I caused tears because I was literally shaking while writing this. but yaaa thanks for reading ((((-:
