You killed me today. Yes I am still breathing, Yes my heart is still beating, but if you were able to see it, to touch it,you would find something resembling a shriveled ballon.
You were the only real thing left in my life. I believed in you and in no one else.
Stupidly, I assumed that you knew me better then anyone else, but I was wrong.
Though you aren't my father i always treated you as such, dumb mistake on my part.
For giving you access to my heart, my feelings and my emotions today, a day that is happilly celebrated by many , I sit here and hurt.
Never in my 20 years have i ever thought that i can hurt so much.
It feels like my heart is slowly being mutilated. Each scar left behind is an additional reminder of my mistake.
You see, what hurts is not the betrayal, its the lack of faith, the lie and hypocriticism that hurt.
Father, you always told me not to be bitter , cynical or pessimist, how ironic is it that you made me into the very thing you fought so hard to avoid me fom being?
Oh father how you make me laugh. You are the very thing that I ran away from. Now you see fathe, that I was right to assume the worst in everybody.
If i had a scape of faith left in humanity, you distroyed on this day.
Because frankly father, I am done.
I am done trying to please you and eveyone else. I am done crying and feeling sorry for my self. I am done believing in something that clearly doesnt exist: Love.
If it does exist, I accept that it wasn't meant for me...
I pefer to live a lonely life and die alone instead of living a life surrounded by people who 'love' me.
All that does is bring me pain.
In conclusion Father, Thank you for murdering me. Thank you for killing my innocence.
P.S Happy Father's Day.
Yours truly, the ghost of your 'daughter'
