Uncertain

Prolouge

(Picture of riki by the side)

It all started at the first day of school. I was not very excited to be honest. I woke up wore my skinny jeans
a shirt and some flannel then i got my bag and went to my mom, which was making my little brother ready. I got to school with my best friend which for now i will call her Caitlyn and we both started making plans how will i meet my crush that made my heart melt. At that time i hadn't realized that he was a total jerk. Anyways, he saw me and i was looking straight into his eyes and i felt like screaming. He smiled at me came closer, and hugged me, After he hugged me he said that he was sorry that he didn't come to my birthday party because he was in a sleepover, whatever. Then when i went in class i saw my other bestie , wich i will nickname Ava. Me and Ava screamed when we saw each other and hugged. Then we both made fun of different teachers. A month passed and my crush was not making the move. So as the stupid idiot i was, i made the move. I told caitlyn to tell him how i feel. He totally ignored me after that day. So i was desperate , not that much doe.

I was in my bed , sad as ever when a notification came :
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He was a guy, in my school that i hated. He was the biggest fuckboy ever. I hated him to death. I wanted to punch him right in the face because he was so so rude to everyone. I mean he didnt do anything to me expect one time he tried to smack my ass but anyways, so yeah i hated Alex.

I don't know why, but Alexs moves made me feel in a curtain way, the way he would smirk at me, or check me out even sometimes say hi to me, it all made sense. I had a new crush. I was so happy that i had moved on from a jerk like the other one.

When i would walk in my class i could sometimes see him siting in a chair and smiling at me, i couldn't help but smile back. He was so handsome with his blue greenish eyes and his dark hair. One day he told Caitlyn that he really liked me and my heart was like coming out of its place, he then started leaving notes at my desk like : i love you and different kind of stuff. It was the best moment of my life.

When he proposed me i could feel my heart beating so fast that i was afraid i was gonna die. I just cant describe it. I would pull of any stupid reason just to meet him, or one time he kissed me in the cheek and it burned and agh i was feeling in a way that i never fell.

But it all ended soon. Very very soon. He moved on, found another girl, treated me like shit. Yet here i am, writing about my exciting year that im wishing it never had to end. He just doesnt care anymore, im starting to think that he never cared. I really dont know, ive got so unanswered questions in my head.