Gasoline (A Troye Sivan fanfic)

Relationship status.

Songs for this chapter:
Famous Last Words- My Chemical Romance

Gives You Hell- All American Rejects

Me and Josh are not a couple. I mean, we are, but I don't feel it anymore. I don't feel warm when he hugs me. I don't feel the fireworks when he kisses me. I don't feel like showing pda signs when we go to town for a coffee. As I said, I don't feel it. I just don't know how to tell him that we can't do this anymore. I mean, he is really sexy, but it's not about the looks. Oh no, he's coming in.
"Hey Amy," he says
"Hey," I say back awkwardly.
"What's wrong?" He says, a curious look on his muscular face.
"We need to talk" I say.
We walked upstairs , and into our bedroom. We had been seeing each other for 4 years, living together for 1.
" Can I go first?" He asked
"Oh, you have something to say? Sure!" I say politely.
" I love you Amy, and I want to keep us the way we are forever. Amy Alison Stephens..." He gets down on one knee. No. " Will you marry me?"
No. No. No. This could not be happening.
"No." I say. Wait. I just said no?
"What the hell Amy? I thought you liked me! You are a selfish Bitch Amy. Leave." Josh said angrily.
" Look, I don't think I'm ready yet." I say. Josh's expression softens slightly, before his eyes well up with water and he smiles.
" Its ok Amy," he says shakily.
I silently pray to the God of relationship saves. I was auditioning in 2 days for a spot in Hollywood High, in Hollywood, to try and become an actress. Josh didn't know about this. I'll only tell him if I got in so I wouldn't have to embarrass myself. Anyway, it was getting late. 11 o'clock at night. The least I could do is sleep to help my audition in 2 days.

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It's the day of my audition! I am so nervous. I can't believe it's actually here. I've already made a friend in the waiting room. She's called Isabel. She's 16, 3 years younger than me. Her boyfriend is super cute. He's called Tyde, and they were practically made for each other.
"He has a brother called Troye. He's super cute! He's nineteen, like you."
Who was this Troye she spoke of? I didn't need to wonder much longer as a smallish, skinny boy came over. His dark hair kinda did its own thing, And he looked HOT!
" Hey!" He said to me.
"Hey!" I said nervously whilst wiggling my fingers at him.
He smiled at me. I smiled back. To break this awkward silence, I was called in for my audition.
" Hi, my name is Amy, I am 19 and I will be auditioning for the acting college"
"Amy, the stage is yours."
I rocked it. I threw gymnastics, heart and soul into it. I could tell the judges weren't expecting to see that from such a small girl. A warm round of applause was heard after I had finished. I smiled warmly at them, very pleased with my performance. As I walked out I waited about 10 minutes for the results, as I was last to audition.
" and the 10 people to be going through will be...
Troye
Isabel
Lucy
Adam
Jayla
Amy
Lily
Sis
Lucas
Laurentas

Congratulations, remember if you didn't get in, there is always next year."

I got in. I fucking got in. So did Isabel. And... Troye! I was really looking forward to this.

As I opened the front door, it hit me. I was going to have to tell Josh. I wasn't sure how I could do it, but it had to happen. As if my thoughts were wishes, Josh stepped out of nowhere.
"Hi!" He said in his Aussie accent. We were all Australian.
"Hi, look, we need to talk." I say, grabbing his arm and leading him into the lounge.
" I don't know how to say this, so I'm just gonna go out and say it. I guess you wanna know why I turned down your proposal?" I say.
"Obviously,"
"Well, it's because... I'm going to go to America to pursue my acting career. There. You got it." I say slowly.
" WHAT AND YOU DIDNT TELL ME?!?" He practically screams in my face. I quickly run to my room and get my phone out. I ring Kelsey, my best friend.
" Kelsey, please may I stay at your place for a couple of weeks?" I ask down the phone.
" Sure, girls night in today. What time are you coming?" She asks.
" In about 2-3 hours,"I say
"Sure, see you then."
The phone goes dead and I start packing all of my stuff. I pack half of my clothes, all my stuff and half of mine and Josh's spending money that we've saved up. $300,000. That was a good amount.
"Bye!" I shout.
" Where are you going?" He asks.
" I'm leaving!"
"What? You can't just leave me I can't bel..."
" I don't want to hear anymore of your shit ever again."
And with that, I grab the door and slam it behind my back. The cold winter air brushes in my face as I walk to my car. I drive to Kelsey's, only after completely filling the boot, back seats and seat next to me with suitcases, with much difficulty. This was it. I was never gonna see Josh again. I got to Kelsey's house at 7, just in time for the girly night. We painted our nails, watched films, had facials, had makeover, ate pizza, ate popcorn, and ate chocolate.