Alex's POV.
I cant do this any more. I cant feel like this anymore. I havent posted a video in weeks or really posted onto my social media.
My family will never understand. They will never understand that being transgender isnt something that I can switch off. It isnt a choice,its who I am. I am a man. I am Alex Bertie. Im not...well urm that person I was born as.
I recorded a video a week or so back. Really explaining how i feel. No fancy editing nothing. Just me talking to a camera about how I feel. Okay bertie just do it,upload it.
Upload in process.
Okay well theres no going back now.
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After a few hours of my transgender suffering video being uploaded, I was on edge on how my viewers were taking my transgender suffering video. So I take a look at the comments.
"Alex you are such an amazing person and the fact you put your feelings out there to help others who are going though the same thing as you is so inspiring."
"You probally wont even see this but theres a small chance you might and that small chance is worth it. I am ftm transgender and having someone i can relate to is such a help for me. You feel all the things I do and you explain feelings I feel and dont understand. So thank you for that,I wish I could do something to repay you."
Wow. I really wasnt expecting that. It feels good that I can help others who dont exactly understand what they feel and why they feel that way. I scroll a little bit more down the comments page and a comment sticks out to me.
"Is it any wonder you were bullied in school you are a tranny. If you went to my school Id pick on you too. No one wants to see you wineing about your sad little life. Get off Youtube for everyones sake"
The negitive comment just keeps going round and round in my head. Should i quit Youtube? Should i just do what everyone wants me to do? Maybe i should......
So a little disclaimer i do not own the video that is a part of this chapter. This video belongs to alex, however I did write the story myself but used alex's video to enhanse the story. Alex's Youtube is therealalexbertie. Thanks for taking your time to read this.
