Learning to let go

Chapter 4

Evan's POV

"I still love you" is the saddest fucking sentence in the whole world..

20 minutes, 19 seconds.

the floor's cold, my heart aches and i can't feel anything. i can't feel it anymore.

what happened, we were fine and happy then........

i walk slowly back to the bedroom, how could she just leave? i don't understand. i close the door and slide down against it, as i sit something hard is underneath me. its the ring. i sigh, then i start crying again. i feel hopeless. all i can think about, is will she come back. and at that moment i swear my heart stopped beating

Evelyn's POV

who am I anymore? what was i thinking, i can't do this to him. does he even miss me, of course he does, i can't believe i just wasted 4 years of our friendship. i don't know if i should go back or not, i mean i could transfer collages, fuck this. "Marcus, turn around." i say. Marcus is my cab driver, on the way he told me a thing or two about love. But i zoned out a couple minuets later. "finally realised huh, love is complicated. ok we will be there soon" he said and smiled while making  a u-turn "thanks Marc."

red lights, blue lights, is all i see its all i can remember, what is going on. people are screaming, i look over to Marcus, he's upside down, blood pouring from his face, "Marcus" i try to say but i can't speak, i try to move, i fall out of my seat, i was probably the one upside down. something sharp stabs me right in the stomach, i scream in pain. i look down to see a chunk of metal sticking out from my lower stomach. i can't breathe. my eyesight is getting blurry, my eyes are heavy and at that moment i swear my heart stopped beating.

I wake to a beeping sound, tubes connected to my arms. i can't move, "her legs are broken and she has a small ligament fracture in her neck. she lost a lot of blood and she still needs to go into surgery. she might not make it" i hear someone say from across the room. i open my eyes but close them suddenly when the female walks over. "she's awake, get the anaesthetic." "no please just wait," i say barely audible "what is it" he asks with bitter to her tone. "i heard you before, can i please just ring my boyfriend" is he my boyfriend?

"ok but only for 5 minuets" he said and left the room. the other person in the room gave me a phone and left also.

Ring ring

ring ring

ring ring

no answer, oh no. i try again. but still no answer. i leave a voicemail. hopefully he gets it. the nurse comes back and then before i know it, a needle is pressed into my arm and all i will ever see is black.

Evan's POV

some people drink, some smoke and others fall in love, each die in a different way.

Buzzing noises awaken me from my drunken mess, ring after ring it won't stop. the floor is covered in beer bottles, smashed and broken, unfixable. after numerous attempts of trying to stand the buzzing stops, then i hear her, i hear her voice. i can't tell if she's here or if it's voicemail. Standing makes it worse, i stumble and i fall, then out of no where.... complete darkness.

"Evan?, where are you"  its her, its Evelyn. "i'm here"  she doesn't reply. "EVEYLN!" i scream but the only thing that replied was my own echo. ""help me" i heard her say.  then a loud roar is replaced with her innocent voice. "its all you fault," it whispered. soon all of the darkness and the dusk cleared up, i'm in a room, it's still dark though but visible, all i can see are four walls. surrounding me, its cold, freezing actually. 

Then suddenly a gush of wind zooms past me. I hear mumbling. " everyone has it, but no one can lose it, what is it?" i says. its voice sounds like the devil, i'm not even joking. "i don't know." i say back, my body trembling. "what is it Evan" it says louder. "everyone has it but no one can lose it!" it screams. "I DONT KNOW" i scream back, my hands covering my ears. it keeps repeating the question over and over again. "what is it?" it whispers. "i don't kn......" i say, cutting myself off. "a shadow." i whisper... then everything stops, the voices the darkness....and my heart.

 i gasp for air as i shoot out of bed, it was just a dream? but it felt so real. I look at the clock on the wall,  it's 9:30pm, I was asleep for 8 hours. After about 2 hours, the house is clean and I'm exhausted. i turn on the TV for some apparent reason and sit down on the couch. the background noise of the news is playing but i can barely hear it, My mind is a complete blank, only memories surface, the ones that I tried so hard last night to forget. "breaking news, a young girl by the name of Evelyn Bale has been rushed to hospital after being in a car collision with a truck. The cab driver was also brutally injured and also has been rushed to hospital." those two words, Evelyn and hospital... My mind is faster than my body i can only think, nothing is moving. 

leg after leg, I'm running down the street, cars coming past, nothing but blur is all i can see. i shove have taken my jeep. i get there, cops and ambulances everywhere, i rush into the building. people are running everywhere. "MUM! i scream, "oh thank god you're here, she's in surgery right now but she will be done soon."  my mum informs me, she works here as a nurse. after a while a nurse comes up to me, she tells me to follow her to the room Evelyn is in. "she's inside." the nurse informs me. I nod and open the double doors.

"Evan?" its her, i rush over to her bed. ""eve, what happened i..uh?" "it's okay, Evan, everything will be okay." she whispers, tears streaming down her face. "no, what do you mean, i...can't...los.." i say franticly "i'm dying Evan, she said i won't make it." she says, the air from her lungs are slowly escaping. "i'm not ready to say goodbye to you yet" i say, my face drenched. She leans up and takes her necklace from around her neck off. "here, its the key to my lock, open it when i go okay?" she says, coughing, her voice barely above a whisper. "no Evelyn don't you dare leave me again" "i love y.." 

Silence, the only thing i can hear is the heart monitor, flatline which now consists of only 1 sound, it failed, her heart failed. my eye sight is going blurry and nurses are rushing in from all kinds of areas, people are screaming at me and telling me to get out. "EVELYN!"  I scream, trying to thrash my way out of the nurses grip. "SOMEBODY DO SOMETHING, PLEASE!" I scream even louder, "i can't lose her" a sharp pain in my right shoulder is sudden as one of the doctors inject me with a syringe,  A sedative, slowly my eyes start to fell heavy and my knees are week, and while the rest of my body sleeps, my mind is wide awake..

HI! okay, so i really hope everyone likes the story so far, and if any of you watch teen wolf you might recognzie one of the parts i wrote. anyway please, leave some comments so i know what you guys think of it... thanks!!