Why This? Why Me?

Flashback!

~Saphire's pov~

"Mom? Dad? Where are you?" I scream and jump as I hear a shot and run upstairs. There's no one in the room but my parents bodies lying in a heap of blood. There not breathing I cry and scream as I shake then hoping they would wake up. But nothing happened I scream in frustration I'm only 17 my brother Drake is in the hospital and now my parents just been killed.

I call 911 tell them what happened from the beginning. Few hours later after everything happened I go to the hospital checking on Drake. He's 19 now and has cancer in his brain it's a deadly one. The doctor says he has a few days to live tears spill from my eyes as I look at my older brother.

Everything is changing and at this rate I know I won't be able to keep going. My heart has been yanked out 3 times cut bleww to peices no ones by my side. I hold drakes hand and feel him squeeze it but when I look up he's still asleep. I get up and kiss his forehead and whisper "I love you big bro. We'll see each other someday again. Then we can annoy the shit out of each other again." I sniffle putting on a fake smile.

And just like that the beeping of his heart stops as he dies holding my hand. The doctors Yank me away I'm in shock as my heart breaks for the 4th time today. Tears spill onto my cheeks and I scream. "No Drake! Come back I need you." I scream and shout as loud as I can I fight against the nurses and doctors that are trying to get me out of the room. They try to bring him back but I know he's gone for good gone forever. Just like that my world crashed.

I was in depression when I tried to act normal round my friends at school I would just burst out into tears and fall to the ground. Today's my birthday I'm 18 now and my parents or my brother isn't here. When I texted my friends they never texted back like usual. I notice they started ditching me at school I became alone. I became cold and stiff and depressed I started cutting after my brothers death. When I get back to the house from school I get my pocket knife and drive out to the park. I sit in the grass looking at the lake to me everything seems grey and dark. It actually looks like bright green fresh grass blue green lake clear blue skies I'm sitting under a blossem tree the sun shining through.

I look up and I take my pocket knife stab it right threw my heart. I fell back staring at the sky and took my last breath right then and there.

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Hi I'm jalyn ik this chapter is a depressing chapter but it will get better I was just explaining on how saphire died. If you think it's not ur type of book then okay. But I assure u it will get better I promise. Hope you enjoyed updating more tomorrow.