Moments

Gone. Forever.

Zayn:

Dinner was quiet. An awkward quiet to be more exact. The scraping of the forks against the ceramic plates were only to be heard. Edmond coughed and interrupted the silence.

"So how have you been? The both of you." Edmond took a sip of wine. 

"Fine." Mindy said, but she looked downward at her plate. 

"We're doing great. And you?" I looked at him, but he was looking at Mindy which made me look at her and back at him. 

"Um, yeah! Great." He smiled, continuing to stare at Mindy.

The silence returned. Everyone seemed calm, but I was about to explode with one question for Edmon. Why the fuck is he staring at Mindy? She's mine and he knows it. I looked down at my plate. The spaghetti was all over my plate, and there was still a lot. I barely ate. I don't know why. There a sudden sound of a chair scraping across the floor. Mindy excused herself from the table amd headed towards the bathroom. Quite soon after she called for me. I excused myself as well and headed towards her.

"What's wrong? Are you alright, love?" I placed my hand on the small of her back. She was hovering above the sink. 

"I'm fine." She coughed. 

"Do you want me to tell him to leave? I'll do that." I rubbed her back. 

"No. It's fine. Just give me a minute yeah?" She looked at me and smiled. 

"Okay." I kissed her temple and made my way out back to the dinner table. 

"Sorry about that." I sat back down. 

"Oh, no worries. So how's living up here? It must be nice." 

"It's pretty amazing."

It's been a while since Mindy's been in there. There was a sudden noise of items falling on the tile floor. The first thing that popped into my mind was Mindy. I ran toward the bathroom and saw her on the floor passed out. I looked at my surroundings and found most of her pills spilled all in the sink. Shit.

"Edmond! Edmond!" I cried out for him. 

"Zayn, is everthing alright? Dear-I'll call for help." He came and left once he saw her in my arms. 

"Mindy!" I rocked, shook, poured water on her, but she didn't wake up.

Edmond came back and said a ambulance was coming. He checked to see if she was breathing. She wansn't. She can't be dead! Soon the ambulance came and took Mindy away. Edmond told me to stay home for a little bit until I got myself together and he decided to go with Mindy to the hospital.

I was outraged. Screaming profanities throughout the entire flat knocking everything over and crying hysterically. I found myself lying on the floor with a shattered picture frame upon my chest. I looked at it. It was a picture of Mindy and I when we went to LA for a holiday. I held it tightly and got up off the floor.

I headed towards the bathroom where it all began and looked at myself through the mirror. Puffy red eyes and tousled hair. My knuckles were ruined from me punching a wall. I washed my face and hands beofre I headed out to the hospital.

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Mindy laid there. Silently. Edmond was outside talking to other doctors. Her hands were lying on top of her stomach. She was pale and cold. I took one of her hands and held it. Tightly. 

"I'm never letting you go. Ever." I kissed her hand and rested my head on her bed.

"Zayn." I heard my name

"Zayn." It was a familiar voice, but very faint.

I opened my eyes and there staring back at me was her. Mindy. I couldn't believe it. She's okay. "Baby. I was so worried about you." I hugged her tightly, but not too tight, " but everything is alright now."

"I want to go home, Zayn. Why am I here?" She began to tear up.

"Shh. It's okay. We'll get you home soon, okay?" I kissed her forehead.

"Okay." She whispered.

Edmond came in and talked to us about her conditions. We would be able to go home in a few days. 

"Hey. Wake up, mate." My body was being nudged.

"What's going on?" My eyes slowly adjusted to the bright lights.

"You fell asleep for a few minutes. I have some news for you." Edmond said a bit monotoned.

"What did the doctors say? Will she be okay? Please tell me she will." I started to ramble on.

"She-She didin't make it. I'm sorry." He looked at me with sincere eyes.

"No. No. NO!" I looked at Mindy. Pale and lifeless.

"Zayn, go home." Edmond touched my shoulder.

"SHE CAN'T. I NEED HER HERE WITH ME." I was screaming and shaking uncontrollably.

"I'm sorry. I really am. We tried." He hugged me and all I could do was hug him back.

She's gone. Forever. My other half is gone and now there is an empty space. Nothing could fill it back whole. I sat in the hospital chair crying and holding her hand as she laid there silently. I know could have done something. But I didn't.